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Ello All
7 years ago
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Jeez time sure does fly lately, been a long time since posting anything, or even a journal.... well time to change it up a bit...
Read or not I guess your call.
Any way been a very stressful start of the year, was getting a bit sick in December that was clearing up, I was actually very optimistic and hopeful for the 2018 year, but here lets put it this way.... All January, a total of 94 rejection/declined applications and bids for moving to a new home, a new job, or just to volunteer for things all rejected because of timing...(They already picked who they wanted or changed mind to sell) and I tried to put that into an okay mood, but so much negativity brought down my mood, I have figured you know what try going for raffles/free luck since money is getting tight and medical bills starting to go south big time, and the no job yeah having to save every little bit of money I get is crap...
Any way 73 raffles over Jan/Feb 73 didn't get anything so yeah even more rejection, but meh I built up an emotional wall around it, the main issue is I am not 100% my happy-go-lucky self and it kibd of emotionally killing my want to be nice/friendly or helpful to anyone I do not know. Yeah its messing with me socially.
I have been in a fairly decent mood recently going to get back to maybe daily sketching again as well as writing, so the competition story I have on hold might be started back up again pretty soon as well as possible artwork.
Any way I am going to end the journal now just saying "Yes I am still alive and around, but until I shake off the negativity and rejection of all the first couple months I still might not be overly active in chatting with some I do not know...
If you read through this thank you, if you ignored or skipped looking for a TLDR note, well too bad I am not going to make the points out (As for reasons in the journal itself) so, yeah read it all or not know anything your call.. until the first post in nearly 8 months I will likely be silent lurking on here.
I will be a bit active in. Discord, skype, telegram so if feeling to chat contact through these thank you and have a great day.
Read or not I guess your call.
Any way been a very stressful start of the year, was getting a bit sick in December that was clearing up, I was actually very optimistic and hopeful for the 2018 year, but here lets put it this way.... All January, a total of 94 rejection/declined applications and bids for moving to a new home, a new job, or just to volunteer for things all rejected because of timing...(They already picked who they wanted or changed mind to sell) and I tried to put that into an okay mood, but so much negativity brought down my mood, I have figured you know what try going for raffles/free luck since money is getting tight and medical bills starting to go south big time, and the no job yeah having to save every little bit of money I get is crap...
Any way 73 raffles over Jan/Feb 73 didn't get anything so yeah even more rejection, but meh I built up an emotional wall around it, the main issue is I am not 100% my happy-go-lucky self and it kibd of emotionally killing my want to be nice/friendly or helpful to anyone I do not know. Yeah its messing with me socially.
I have been in a fairly decent mood recently going to get back to maybe daily sketching again as well as writing, so the competition story I have on hold might be started back up again pretty soon as well as possible artwork.
Any way I am going to end the journal now just saying "Yes I am still alive and around, but until I shake off the negativity and rejection of all the first couple months I still might not be overly active in chatting with some I do not know...
If you read through this thank you, if you ignored or skipped looking for a TLDR note, well too bad I am not going to make the points out (As for reasons in the journal itself) so, yeah read it all or not know anything your call.. until the first post in nearly 8 months I will likely be silent lurking on here.
I will be a bit active in. Discord, skype, telegram so if feeling to chat contact through these thank you and have a great day.
