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sorry for being so distant
7 years ago
i've been active on social media, but i haven't taken the time to explain my situation here
long story short, i've been struggling with a crippling amphetamine addiction for the past 3 or so years.
there was only about 6-7 months where i was clean, but once my friend passed away the stress was too much and i was back on it
sure, it helped me create a lot of art, and that's where i fell into a pit. i started to rely on it for art. even still whenever i get the urge to create, i always crave adderall. it's sickening.
just a few weeks ago, i had someone help me snuff it out for good by locking it all away where i can't possibly get to it
and i'm really greatful, i feel like i can start being myself again and start creating work that i want to - need to- without feeling like i can't, without feeling limited by my addiction
it's been a rough road but i feel like what lies ahead is a much brighter future for me, and i thank you all for being understanding and sticking with me throughout everything.
these past two years have been the roughest patch of my life but i'm finally breaking through to greener pastures and conquering my issues
i apologize to anyone my actions have directly affected, i am trying to make things right
thank you for reading this and for understanding. i am sorry to everyone i have distanced and pushed away because of this, and to all who it has directly affected. i hope i can make things right.
long story short, i've been struggling with a crippling amphetamine addiction for the past 3 or so years.
there was only about 6-7 months where i was clean, but once my friend passed away the stress was too much and i was back on it
sure, it helped me create a lot of art, and that's where i fell into a pit. i started to rely on it for art. even still whenever i get the urge to create, i always crave adderall. it's sickening.
just a few weeks ago, i had someone help me snuff it out for good by locking it all away where i can't possibly get to it
and i'm really greatful, i feel like i can start being myself again and start creating work that i want to - need to- without feeling like i can't, without feeling limited by my addiction
it's been a rough road but i feel like what lies ahead is a much brighter future for me, and i thank you all for being understanding and sticking with me throughout everything.
these past two years have been the roughest patch of my life but i'm finally breaking through to greener pastures and conquering my issues
i apologize to anyone my actions have directly affected, i am trying to make things right
thank you for reading this and for understanding. i am sorry to everyone i have distanced and pushed away because of this, and to all who it has directly affected. i hope i can make things right.
H Y P N O A R M Y
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Telegram handle is the same as my FA.
It makes you feel like it's your drive, but it's stealing your life and your damn soul. It's bullshit.
You got this. And I really wish you the best on this journey. <3
Youve got people in your corner rooting for you. So what ever direction you're going. If you need a net you have one. I'd almost say, start reaching out to friends within arms reach. I wish I was local. I just got my massage table back from Cali
Still what ever your path, we're here. Watchers and friends.
Imagination and creativity do not need such crutches. It is always inside of you, ready to come out, even if tapping into it may seem difficult at times.
Good luck with everything and know that everyone here is there for you as best as we can be.
Without it I can just be myself and not criticize everything. Art flows freely but without force or speed. Things can just be done as they are, without the drive to do everything. Sometimes doing everything makes things worse. Sometimes it's best to be immersed in your environment and let your art reflect what you experience. Adderall adds an element that removes you from your surroundings and puts you inside your head. That can have a bad effect on a lot. It can be detached and sterile. It removes presence and empathy.
It's been a while, but it's cool to see that we still have some odd similarities. I'm glad that you're making good choices, especially when they are tough to make.
:3
Stay strong. You got this.