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Regarding What's Below the Surface.
7 years ago
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It has been some time since I confided in this place as far as feelings and work, including commissions, goes, so here I go-
Things have been a (beautiful)storm, and my judgement hasn't always been up to scratch.
I didn't always notice when someone cared about me. I forgot some of the things that I needed. And more trivially, I took on commissions when I wasn't in a position to finish them in a timely manner. But it's getting better! I'm remembering.
Finally, I'm beginning to pull myself together a little, and hope to make some good headway on my extremely overdue commissions soon! Those waiting for art: you are angels, there really isn't any way for me to thank you sufficiently for your patience.
On a more positive note, I am still loving the work I have now, making some really true friends and learning loads, even if it's hard work, and I'm forced to face some fears. Although, that's probably a good thing. I've always been a little fragile. Time to be braver, thicker skinned, more patient! I've started to read more books, and I think it's making me better.
I know this last year has been a huge and alien one full of change, and I expect this coming year to be just as exciting and foreign. Perhaps it will be quite alot longer than I thought before I become capable to taking big commissions regularly.
I'm going to be brave, stay curious, and do my best to be kind.
Things'll fall into place, I'm sure.
I just wish the poor clients here waiting for my work didn't have to be the ones to have to wait while I figure myself out in this time.
Thank you.
Sorry.
Take care!
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Anyway, I'm glad to hear that you're doing better and getting back to things. ^-^
You are sincerely a wonderful person and a great friend and I’m glad things are going better for you.
I’m looking forward to commissioning you in the future when your are in that better situation.
It is very nice of you to make a journal explaining everything. I'm really happy that you have found your place in the world, even though I still feel a little like agent J in the end of MIB2, sorry for such a comparison.
Hope stuff will continue to improve for you, pal. You're awesome.