So.. I've come to realize that the unit I work on is basically the 'Abandoned Child' Unit. What I mean by that, is that the other hospital units will transfer the 'troublesome' patients to our unit. I'm not sure why this trend is occurring and why it's deemed as fair. My unit gets a lot of total care patients, meaning patients that need assistance with bathing, feeding, turning, using the bathroom, etc. This also explains why many of my co-workers are burned out [jaded or tired of their job; lost their way in a sense]. I'm starting to feel that way too, unfortunately, but I'm trying to stay positive in it all. I know for sure, that I don't want to stay there forever, so I think I can tough it out for another year.

Additionally, there is a bit financial crisis occurring within my family, so, members of my family have come to me for loaning purposes. I'm happy to help, as long as they're willing to help me later down the road as well.. and as long as it's within my budget and I don't go under as well.

Just giving you peeps an update as to why not much art flow is coming through and what I'm currently dealing with [if any one is wondering and stoof]

Anyways~! I hope you peeps are having a wonderful year and it's better than mine. I'm hoping and praying that my year will get better and that I don't lose my spark and passion in nursing.

As a side note, I'm still grateful and appreciative that I have friends I can talk to this about, I have a job that pays decently to help not only myself but other peeps in my family, a car, warm water, an apartment, the opportunity to get food when I want, and a whole lot of things. ... I know things will get better. I just have to be patient.