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hyatus and opening up my heart like a a private diaries
8 years ago
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CURRENTLY INACTIVE, I'LL BE BACK SOON!
Art status:
▪ Commisions: NO ▪ ▪ Collabrations: NO ▪ ▪ Trades: NO ▪ ▪ Requests: NO ▪
● My fursonas ●
▪ Cheston Ghost▪ ▪ Taliyoh Nouverkouly ▪ ▪ Cody de Baulacs ▪
Art status:
▪ Commisions: NO ▪ ▪ Collabrations: NO ▪ ▪ Trades: NO ▪ ▪ Requests: NO ▪
● My fursonas ●
▪ Cheston Ghost▪ ▪ Taliyoh Nouverkouly ▪ ▪ Cody de Baulacs ▪
TL;DR version: I will do everything to make a come back, and an opportunity is maybe on the way.
14 march 2018 update
Listening to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W6sIchnRuZY (feel free to listen to it while youre reading to get my mindset)
Current mood: Desperate
Hi everybody,
This journal is kinda painful for me to write, cuz i don't like begging/complain and talk about thing that are mostly negative.But it has a positive outcome...otherwise i wouldn't bored you readint it^-^'
This is why, among the other, this journal take so much time for me to do. Even tonight, i procrastinated it really much before i decided to do it in one final shot.
First thing first, I feel sorry guy if you've waited news or artwork for me and didn't get anything. In this journal, I will explain the reason of my long idling and why my production has just suddenly stopped.
________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________
It's been so much of a long time i didn't uploaded something here, despite my promess to upload new femboy every week.
Sadly, i've been unable to produce any digital art has my graphic tablet has broken and im not good/popular enough to start a fundraise for a new one. Also, i'm a femboy of honor ;-3 I wanna deserve my due with honesty and hard work; not charity.
Theres more to say...It feels like word are just leaving my mind has i'm writing.
I'm too emotionnal lol.
I love Fa and my profile and I *STILL* would like to accomplish myself by becoming a Professionnal Furry Pr0n Artist.It may sound childish to write , but I will NEVER *ever* change my mind about that and im still sure even when i'll be 50 yrs old this is what i wanna be.Furry may become overdated by this time, but i'm sure has hell I won't change my mind.
I love you so much...You are the most adorable and cute comunity I could have seen in my entire life.
I'm mostly sure nobody will read that aha...So its almost like writing in a private diary lol. Thinking that is making me opening with more ease, and gosh guy this is what i need...need to show you how much of a good person I have, cuz yeah, i'm open to coaching, collab and will be till i reach a point where i dont need it. And i'll try my best to give credit to the person who will have helped me afterward.
[complaining paragraphs upcoming SKIP THIS*honestly its up to you =p, but i dont wanna annoy you with childish complain]
Lately, i'm mostly drawing traditional in my manga old style when i'm in a good mood.When my tablet broke, i spend a couple of month without drawing since i was feeling like my traditional style was even more worse than it was. Its hard for me to draw when i dont feel fine, even thought drawing is making me feel better...but you know...when you feel depressed...there nothing you wanna do really and every thought you do have is just pushing yourself further down.
During Christmas, my mother gave me a best buy gift card.I was (and still) planning to afford a new tablet from it...The only thing is that i'm too COCKY when its time for a change.I rather stay with my old all-broken thing, than try a product that i have to arrange and be deceived with some features.So, i'm always thinking about BIG upgrade or same old product.My bamboo is not availablein store, and i have to admit, it was not the best thing to have. SO....big update that i want? An erase on the opposite side of the pencil, sound easy to find, no....?SO HARD TO FIND.I spend some entire day looking for that feature on sub-brand ( huion sounded really attractive) and still, I learned that Wacom still own the patent for this!
So yeah, guess my only affordable option was the good old bamboo pen and touch; if i was lucky enough to get one in used condition, or wait to have more money for an intuos, get sub branded or a used kijiji tablet on kijiji while I wait. I checked a couple of deal and NEARLY got an intuos pro for 175 on kijiji, but i wasnt fast enough and the elder sir sell it to somebody else.I were unlucky, but eh!It happen.Have to say that at this point, I'm still becoming more and more desperate, but yeah...I shouldnt be that cocky though.
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But thing could change...And i wouldn't dare to make this journal if there wasnt a positive outcome fromt it.(and here why it take me so much time to wrote it, i had hard time and i couldnt find any positive in whatsoever).
A friend of mine make me a proposition. I dont know how much serious he is about it, but I kinda reach the point where if someone is forcing me to draw in any way it will just help me to get thru this hyatus.Basically, he said that if i do a cute femboy Faun he might pay half for a cintiq(im not asking for so much so i will lower the offer to an intuos pro if he accept one of my draft)
Now, i have to prove that im worthy enough on traditional art to deserve this gift.I kinda feel like its my first real ''commission''.I'll keep in touch with you guy in the future, and i will post the faun once it will be completed.
Thank you so much for reading....this means lot more than you think! <3
14 march 2018 update
Listening to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W6sIchnRuZY (feel free to listen to it while youre reading to get my mindset)
Current mood: Desperate
Hi everybody,
This journal is kinda painful for me to write, cuz i don't like begging/complain and talk about thing that are mostly negative.But it has a positive outcome...otherwise i wouldn't bored you readint it^-^'
This is why, among the other, this journal take so much time for me to do. Even tonight, i procrastinated it really much before i decided to do it in one final shot.
First thing first, I feel sorry guy if you've waited news or artwork for me and didn't get anything. In this journal, I will explain the reason of my long idling and why my production has just suddenly stopped.
________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________
It's been so much of a long time i didn't uploaded something here, despite my promess to upload new femboy every week.
Sadly, i've been unable to produce any digital art has my graphic tablet has broken and im not good/popular enough to start a fundraise for a new one. Also, i'm a femboy of honor ;-3 I wanna deserve my due with honesty and hard work; not charity.
Theres more to say...It feels like word are just leaving my mind has i'm writing.
I'm too emotionnal lol.
I love Fa and my profile and I *STILL* would like to accomplish myself by becoming a Professionnal Furry Pr0n Artist.It may sound childish to write , but I will NEVER *ever* change my mind about that and im still sure even when i'll be 50 yrs old this is what i wanna be.Furry may become overdated by this time, but i'm sure has hell I won't change my mind.
I love you so much...You are the most adorable and cute comunity I could have seen in my entire life.
I'm mostly sure nobody will read that aha...So its almost like writing in a private diary lol. Thinking that is making me opening with more ease, and gosh guy this is what i need...need to show you how much of a good person I have, cuz yeah, i'm open to coaching, collab and will be till i reach a point where i dont need it. And i'll try my best to give credit to the person who will have helped me afterward.
[complaining paragraphs upcoming SKIP THIS*honestly its up to you =p, but i dont wanna annoy you with childish complain]
Lately, i'm mostly drawing traditional in my manga old style when i'm in a good mood.When my tablet broke, i spend a couple of month without drawing since i was feeling like my traditional style was even more worse than it was. Its hard for me to draw when i dont feel fine, even thought drawing is making me feel better...but you know...when you feel depressed...there nothing you wanna do really and every thought you do have is just pushing yourself further down.
During Christmas, my mother gave me a best buy gift card.I was (and still) planning to afford a new tablet from it...The only thing is that i'm too COCKY when its time for a change.I rather stay with my old all-broken thing, than try a product that i have to arrange and be deceived with some features.So, i'm always thinking about BIG upgrade or same old product.My bamboo is not availablein store, and i have to admit, it was not the best thing to have. SO....big update that i want? An erase on the opposite side of the pencil, sound easy to find, no....?SO HARD TO FIND.I spend some entire day looking for that feature on sub-brand ( huion sounded really attractive) and still, I learned that Wacom still own the patent for this!
So yeah, guess my only affordable option was the good old bamboo pen and touch; if i was lucky enough to get one in used condition, or wait to have more money for an intuos, get sub branded or a used kijiji tablet on kijiji while I wait. I checked a couple of deal and NEARLY got an intuos pro for 175 on kijiji, but i wasnt fast enough and the elder sir sell it to somebody else.I were unlucky, but eh!It happen.Have to say that at this point, I'm still becoming more and more desperate, but yeah...I shouldnt be that cocky though.
[/skipped]
But thing could change...And i wouldn't dare to make this journal if there wasnt a positive outcome fromt it.(and here why it take me so much time to wrote it, i had hard time and i couldnt find any positive in whatsoever).
A friend of mine make me a proposition. I dont know how much serious he is about it, but I kinda reach the point where if someone is forcing me to draw in any way it will just help me to get thru this hyatus.Basically, he said that if i do a cute femboy Faun he might pay half for a cintiq(im not asking for so much so i will lower the offer to an intuos pro if he accept one of my draft)
Now, i have to prove that im worthy enough on traditional art to deserve this gift.I kinda feel like its my first real ''commission''.I'll keep in touch with you guy in the future, and i will post the faun once it will be completed.
Thank you so much for reading....this means lot more than you think! <3
