Take a break if yer feelin that stressed out. Come back when yer ready, we'll be here for you :>

nods I get it, and understand completely >3> its can be rather stressful opening it up and sitting there, not having anything happen and feeling like your wasting your life away x3 why so many do it while doing other things, like video games or videos. But i can totally get not having the will to continue on, i personally kept going back and forth on the decision. in the end, i decided id do it when i could, but not dwell on it if i couldn't, but that can be rather hard x3 and in your case, if no ones there, then well...it gets super boring and depressing really fast. I hope you can stay here though, i do admit i notice and like seeing your name pop up from time to time on my commissioned works :3

(man i talk to much >3> but basically what Helios said, take a break, it did wonders for me, should help you as well X3)

-hug- you don't need to apologize you do what you need to be happy, you matter, wish j was on more often and to have fun, but to when ever yo just talk I'm a note away or message away in certain social medias, be well, continue to be sweet, around for listening and talking if you needs