Just recently I hit day 500 of my HRT regiment and a lot has changed since the first day. I am no longer with the partner that I started this journey with. I am not upset with her, nor do I feel any animosity toward her. She is straight, as much as she tried to see more than just my gender. I guess that means that she respects me and truly does see me as female now. After more than a year I was finally ally able to find a person who can not only see me as truly female but likes me for who I am. I have also started a new career and am on my way to legally changing my name and gender marker. Soon the me that existed for 32 years will be nothing but a memory. There is plenty of pain that goes with some of those memories, but I need that pain to see how good my life is now. I am truly happy with the decision to transition and am ready to take it to the next steps.

There is no going back now, only forward.