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I feel like I'm losing it D:
16 years ago
But I'm not sure I ever had it in the first place.
I've been feeling pretty depressed lately, which sucks, because I've actually almost kind of been making friends since I came here. That could be part of the problem though, when I don't have friends I don't have to worry about ruining everything. Because I'm just so useless, you know? How can I even be good enough for any of you, I suck. Sometimes it feels like the more people I know, the more alone I am.
Part of me is worried that I'm just posting this to be an attention whore, and another part is worried that everyone else will think that, even if I'm not, but I need to vent. But then, everything I can think of to say just sounds so stupid and pathetic.
I've been feeling pretty depressed lately, which sucks, because I've actually almost kind of been making friends since I came here. That could be part of the problem though, when I don't have friends I don't have to worry about ruining everything. Because I'm just so useless, you know? How can I even be good enough for any of you, I suck. Sometimes it feels like the more people I know, the more alone I am.
Part of me is worried that I'm just posting this to be an attention whore, and another part is worried that everyone else will think that, even if I'm not, but I need to vent. But then, everything I can think of to say just sounds so stupid and pathetic.
And no one is useless.
And yeah, I guess friends come and go, I guess I just wish it felt like I really mattered in all that. People just drop my out of their lives like my being there never made a difference in the first place....
:c