why AM i still here?

all i'm doing is getting depressed , hurt , angry , betrayed , and used like some sort of dog for everyone's entertainment...

i really hate this , i hate feeling this way , sometimes i just wanna give up on life, i've tried over and over to stay positive, be myself..

but how can i do that when lifes keeps giving me a huge "fuck your life" at me...

i just don't know what to do anymore...