wanted to get that journal off my page so here is a little update for all of you. Basically, I've had a rough past few weeks but have started getting back to normal again. College grades didn't really take a dip either so I'm grateful for that.

I turn 25 this Sunday and I sorta had a mini-freakout a few days ago which wasn't fun. (Probably cause of a mix of what happened and the feeling of getting older)

But I've been working out a lot more and eating less so I'm hoping this time next year I'll be in a lot better shape physically and mentally. I've never had a BF or GF before that wasn't an online-only thing that lasted a few months at best. So I'm hoping that once I start getting results on my workouts I'll have better confidence on forcing myself out into the world to see if I can snag someone. Even if it's pretty casually I do think it'd be healthy for me to have a nice relationship with someone.

Hope this makes everyone who read my last journal feel better. I'm doing better overall and only had a little panic attack/freakout since the accident that took my sister which I consider an acceptable amount considering the circumstances.