Hey everyone! How have you all been? Good, I hope! Growing and moving through life, sure has been quite a few years hasn't it? Seems like it was only a while ago I was posting art back in NorCal. Yep. Long time ago.
That was back when I was most productive at my art wasn't it? I wasn't my best... but it was when I started my comics... When I was finishing commissions on a weekly basis. Yeah... Things havn't really been the same for me since.

It's been a struggle dancing around how i'm going to approach telling my fans and supporters about this issue. Let alone looking on the issue myself. I'm sure everyone has noticed in the past 3+ years, my activity and consistency with producing and posting art has been on a decline. I'm forced me to take a step back and look at my state of being, and I have to accept something i've been in denial about through this struggle.

I'm not as well as I used to be.

I have a lot of issues about myself that are next to impossible to cope with on my own. Every single day is a struggle just to leave my room or apartment, and this isn't a new issue. I've grown up with this problem, and it's been confusing trying to understand -why- these are problems for me beyond how others perceive it. There's one large attributing factor i've come to discover, and it's very hard for me to come forward about due to the nature of the problem.

I'm most likely Agoraphobic.

For -me-, that means embarrassment to me is not what it is to other people. Embarrassment is fear, fear is panic, and panic is embarrassing. Which causes a vicious and cornering cycle thats... not an easy thing to live with. I don't like it, I wish I didn't have it, but it's something that's not likely to go away. Most I can do is cope, and seek assistance through means of medical and therapeutic care.

I can't get a job. Commissions and patreon are my income. I don't have to repeat the all too relatable strife of at least attempting looking for work and putting in applications, only to be rejected from every single one of hundreds of jobs. Even if I did get a job, my chronic conditions make it difficult for me to work outside of the house. It's not something that's 'gotten over' or 'sucked up'. Just because 'everyone does'... Most I can do is compromise and look for something 'in house'. Which while possible, will still be a struggle.

So what's to take from all of this? Well... I'm not going to stop drawing. I love it too much. I love drawing for people, and I love my art. But... my lifestyle is becoming a detriment to my health and dampering my productivity. My art consistency is going to be slow, especially during recovery and seeking treatment. I still need the support and financial assistance to continue to afford our bills.
I don't want to worry anyone, not at all. But I had a long discussion and I decided that those who expect art from me should know why I've been so... quiet. I'm still working as much as i'm physically able to on what I already owe.

So if you want to continue to see my artwork, AND keep an eye on my well-being... Please follow my accounts; Furaffinity, Twitter, Tumblr, or join my Discord!
Pledging to my Patreon is the biggest help I can ask for! No money? No problem! I encourage watchers to check in and send me messages asking how my treatment is progressing. Giving me a supportive push to take care of myself is as helpful as any dollar bill.

And to all of those who have been supporting me all these years, a very big thank you... to all of you. Without your help, I wouldn't be here where I am right now.