Sigh...
7 years ago
General
Life without fluffiness is just so incredibly... What's worth the most in people's minds?
I know the goal is to be successful, but is success worth your happiness? If a job makes you happy, but it's not the highest paid job in the company, is it worth losing your happiness a bit for a job that, while you do like... You aren't at your happiest?
Why is it all the good paying jobs all the boring desk ones in IT? I love my hand on stuff... I've been just so hard on myself. Doing some things... I'm just so unsure of what I really want anymore.
I'm kind of losing my mind...
I know the goal is to be successful, but is success worth your happiness? If a job makes you happy, but it's not the highest paid job in the company, is it worth losing your happiness a bit for a job that, while you do like... You aren't at your happiest?
Why is it all the good paying jobs all the boring desk ones in IT? I love my hand on stuff... I've been just so hard on myself. Doing some things... I'm just so unsure of what I really want anymore.
I'm kind of losing my mind...
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I'm finding that, it's not really IT work that bugs me, it's sitting at a desk all day, doing nothing but labs to make sure things work, and then deplayment, high stress because you're working with business grade stuff, and one wrong move can cripple something severely. I dunno, I just want to wake up in the morning, go to work, do something fun, and head home to relax. I don't care about money, but my mother is always pushing me towards the better paying stuff, while it may be in the field I studdied and love... it's not really a work I wanna do... I don't know if I'm making sense, but yeah...
And well, I get the testing, it's just I hate how repetitive it is. It's boring, and no matter how much testing and validation you do, something can always go wrong.
I also just have a hard time dealing with certain people.
At the end of the day, I want a job I'm happy at. I don't really care what it is, as long as I'm happy. And I don't know if I'm happy, if I'm sad, or what is causing my current down feeling. It's not sitting down all day, it's doing that every work day, sitting at a cubicle, just seemingly repeating the same thing over and over and over again, same boring things every day. And when things go down, it's just instant super stress. And I'm not sure I'll enjoy that...
Honestly, even if the pay is very good I can't justify sacrificing your mental health for it. You should be working with something you like so that way you actually look forward to waking up and getting to do something you enjoy for a living. Don't wear yourself down too much or you'll really regret it later on ;x;
The society that places career progression over being content just creates monsters.
You only get so much life, and I think if you can't be passionate about your work, you're wasting time. It's FAR easier to change your habits to require less money (learn to save, budget, and live well within your means, which most people don't realize is far below what they might otherwise consider) -- and do something you really enjoy for less pay as a result -- than work hard to make money and be so stressed out and bored and tired of your work that you probably want to either kill yourself or spend all that money on gratifying things you don't really need to take you away from the fact that you don't like your current job/life situation.
I would say 100% find the one you like better and do that. Life's too damn short to hate part of your day, let alone a majority of it.