Not Doing Well...
7 years ago
I realize that people may not read these journals, and I'm probably just speaking to the air here, but I'm not doing well right now. I just need to say some things, and I figured here is the best place to do it.
I'm 18, yes,and in my final year of Highschool. But I'm also alone. I have friends, but they don't know about the fact that I am gay. IRL, only three people know. But they're not even part of my family, and, embarrassingly enough, all thrre are girls who had an interest in me. In dating.
But I don't live in an area where I can feel safe talking about my sexuality openly. So no one knows that I'm gay, and even if I could start dating, I don't know if the type of people that I'm attracted to are even present at my school. Right now, I am so lonely that it's not even funny. I can't handle this.
I'm on the forums, and it's helped, but I really wish I could start spreading out across the people I watch. Unfortunately, I know that most people are busy. And, with my interests being what they are, and with my lack of a fursona, I think that most people I want to talk to aren't interested in talking with me. I've sent a few notes, and I only have gotten one response back.
I want to talk to people, and with me, that does mean RP sometimes, but I feel like I won't ever be able to, because I don't have a fursona, and I don't know anyone well enough to RP one-on-one.
I dunno what to do anymore... I can't go on feeling alone like this.
I'm 18, yes,and in my final year of Highschool. But I'm also alone. I have friends, but they don't know about the fact that I am gay. IRL, only three people know. But they're not even part of my family, and, embarrassingly enough, all thrre are girls who had an interest in me. In dating.
But I don't live in an area where I can feel safe talking about my sexuality openly. So no one knows that I'm gay, and even if I could start dating, I don't know if the type of people that I'm attracted to are even present at my school. Right now, I am so lonely that it's not even funny. I can't handle this.
I'm on the forums, and it's helped, but I really wish I could start spreading out across the people I watch. Unfortunately, I know that most people are busy. And, with my interests being what they are, and with my lack of a fursona, I think that most people I want to talk to aren't interested in talking with me. I've sent a few notes, and I only have gotten one response back.
I want to talk to people, and with me, that does mean RP sometimes, but I feel like I won't ever be able to, because I don't have a fursona, and I don't know anyone well enough to RP one-on-one.
I dunno what to do anymore... I can't go on feeling alone like this.
I am busy, yes, but I'll always try my best to respond, no worries.
You don't have a fursona, but I've been enjoying your RPs ever since I first met you, in that big old "Tales of Deities" one, and I just enjoy talking to you or RP-ing with you in general, man.
You shouldn't feel lonely like that, man... not with me around for you.
I mean it.