I realize that people may not read these journals, and I'm probably just speaking to the air here, but I'm not doing well right now. I just need to say some things, and I figured here is the best place to do it.

I'm 18, yes,and in my final year of Highschool. But I'm also alone. I have friends, but they don't know about the fact that I am gay. IRL, only three people know. But they're not even part of my family, and, embarrassingly enough, all thrre are girls who had an interest in me. In dating.

But I don't live in an area where I can feel safe talking about my sexuality openly. So no one knows that I'm gay, and even if I could start dating, I don't know if the type of people that I'm attracted to are even present at my school. Right now, I am so lonely that it's not even funny. I can't handle this.

I'm on the forums, and it's helped, but I really wish I could start spreading out across the people I watch. Unfortunately, I know that most people are busy. And, with my interests being what they are, and with my lack of a fursona, I think that most people I want to talk to aren't interested in talking with me. I've sent a few notes, and I only have gotten one response back.

I want to talk to people, and with me, that does mean RP sometimes, but I feel like I won't ever be able to, because I don't have a fursona, and I don't know anyone well enough to RP one-on-one.

I dunno what to do anymore... I can't go on feeling alone like this.