So me and my closest brother got into a huge fight that resulted in us not being friends anymore. Along like 3/4ths of my family... I only have 3 ppl that i now talk to who live 10 mins from me. I have given up my time and patience to most of these ppl. inviting them over for dinner, or go out somewhere just to hang out. Even gave them stuff and gave free rides. Then to be told i didnt give enough... I might as well have been slapped in the face because then at least the sting goes away after a few minutes... I havent been able to stop crying since yesterday... I cant even explain how heartbroken i am... I wish i had never moved here in the first place. it has been one thing after another...

I honestly dont have any motivation for like anything right now... I had a few YCHs planned, but i honestly cant even think straight... I cant believe this all happened with my favorite brother and then it ended up like this... i wont go into details... but lets just say that... hes going down a dark path while being controlled and manipulated by his gf and he cant see it. and now its too late, since she convinced him to get her pregnant (my assumption, because it makes sense with everything thats been going on with him.) So... im done with most of my social media, except my art social media. I just need a few days to process and clean up YCHs and yall will be able to get some art. Thanks for listening to my lil venting. I honestly just dont know what else to do at this point...