*cries* I think I completely ruined the chance to have some fun with my friend... She asked me to rub her feet for her, whiched turned out the be a HUGE turnon for her. Then she mentioned how turned on she was to me. I kinda said that she probably wouldn't wanna know what I was thinking, cause I was really turned on too... But she asked anyway. That's when I let my shyness get the better of me and I wouldn't tell her. I knew what I wanted and I'm thinking she did too, I mean, she's always flirting in some sorta fashin with me.. But I guess.. I was jus too scared to admitt what I wanted and how I felt about it.. I mean, I'm still trying to figure out whether I'm bi or straight.. But she finally gave up asking me and got up and left.. I texted her later and told her I was sorry... But she hasn't really replied back, tho.. And it's really upseting me and I cried myself to sleep last night over it... I'm wanting to talk to her and really apologize for my stupidness and ask her if she wants to try again, but I'm not really sure how to approach her... And it's scaring me to think I'm gonna lose a good friend over this. When we met, we became fast friends. And she's come to learn that I'm kinda scared to talk to people and confessing my feelings toward them. She even told my crush that I liked him, and since, he kinda stops to talk to me and all.. But I really dun wanna lose her, and it'd be tough to not be friends, seeing as we'd have to see each other everyday. We have the same suite... But that's not the point.. I think my main point is that I wanna rant my feelings at someone and this seems like a good a place as any.. *cries*