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Update Journal - 310 Watchers / My Future as a Furry Artist
7 years ago
Hey everyone, I know I haven't really been posting much, hell its been 7 months since a journal and 3 months since any work has been posted, and it wasn't even mine. I guess I should explain myself since I've kind of let a lot of people in the dark. I left for my freshman year of college back in August and since then, I pretty much only focused on my studies. I worked myself in to the ground, was constantly stressed, and overworked myself due to my "workaholic" tendencies. At the end of the year, I did great and all (3.8), but I gained weight and I wasn't all too happy. I changed my major and im excited to go down a new path and I have been busy following this. I also made some changes within my online social network, creating a much more positive environment for my friends and I after previous situations. To all of you who've watched me in the last 7 months since I posted my last journal, I want to thank you for your support. I never really expected to hit 300 followers on here, which is quite nice.
I guess the elephant in the room besides what I've said for now is "where did the art go?". As an artist, I'm going to take a gander and say most of you who watch me watch me for art, so you probably have been anticipating new posts. Honestly, im not sure if I will keep posting. I kind of lost my motivation to use Fur Affinity as a platform, and at some points being a furry all together. I'm really on the fence about it anymore since the fandom for the most part has kind of bothered me and I never really have fit in. Granted I have found a good group of friends and a lovely boyfriend to mingle with, outside this little clique im quite silent and don't participate in the fandom. I still draw sometimes, and honestly I have been improving a good amount. I just got tired of posting I guess, it lost interest. I started to draw for myself and not others, since sometimes people would pester me to do commissions or give them free art, which are things I do not want to do. My only motivation anymore besides knowing I have a nice backing online is my boyfriend and my friends, but even with them I still lack confidence in my art skills in terms of furry art. I've considered swapping over to Twitter full time but im not sure if that really is the solution to all of this. I just need to work on my self confidence I suppose, or find a way to enjoy posting my art publicly anymore. As a first step, I changed my profile picture. Its based off the new reference I did for my sona, which turned out pretty well.
I guess the sum of this story is that im pretty indifferent to posting and being a furry artist anymore, and I'm not sure what to do at this point. I'm not entirely sure what to say at this point, since I've pretty much said everything on my mind. I wonder who will end up reading this, I guess if anyone has anything to say about my art or my future, comment below. I'd appreciate it and I'll be sure to respond in some way.
Thanks for your time everyone, have a great summer.
Best,
Yoru
I guess the elephant in the room besides what I've said for now is "where did the art go?". As an artist, I'm going to take a gander and say most of you who watch me watch me for art, so you probably have been anticipating new posts. Honestly, im not sure if I will keep posting. I kind of lost my motivation to use Fur Affinity as a platform, and at some points being a furry all together. I'm really on the fence about it anymore since the fandom for the most part has kind of bothered me and I never really have fit in. Granted I have found a good group of friends and a lovely boyfriend to mingle with, outside this little clique im quite silent and don't participate in the fandom. I still draw sometimes, and honestly I have been improving a good amount. I just got tired of posting I guess, it lost interest. I started to draw for myself and not others, since sometimes people would pester me to do commissions or give them free art, which are things I do not want to do. My only motivation anymore besides knowing I have a nice backing online is my boyfriend and my friends, but even with them I still lack confidence in my art skills in terms of furry art. I've considered swapping over to Twitter full time but im not sure if that really is the solution to all of this. I just need to work on my self confidence I suppose, or find a way to enjoy posting my art publicly anymore. As a first step, I changed my profile picture. Its based off the new reference I did for my sona, which turned out pretty well.
I guess the sum of this story is that im pretty indifferent to posting and being a furry artist anymore, and I'm not sure what to do at this point. I'm not entirely sure what to say at this point, since I've pretty much said everything on my mind. I wonder who will end up reading this, I guess if anyone has anything to say about my art or my future, comment below. I'd appreciate it and I'll be sure to respond in some way.
Thanks for your time everyone, have a great summer.
Best,
Yoru
I guess the thing I would add is, even if you don't think you'd like to continue posting art, don't treat it as a permanent decision. The door is open for you to reconsider some time down the line.
Yeah, I felt it was for the best to say something. Not saying anything after a while started to make me feel bad so I believed it was for the best to make this post.
I still may post, just not here. I got tired of Fur Affinity cause there is so much drama and cringe on this platform, so im thinking of moving full-time to Twitter, but it hasn't been set in stone yet. I'm just gonna give it thought through the summer, since im pretty uncertain at this time.
First off, take care of yourself. That's the most important thing. I had a very similar problem in college my first semester (getting a bit better, but still panic when I dont get straight A's). Dont force yourself to manage art and school if you dont want to. Which brings me to my second point. Honestly, the furry community kinda sucks. I dont like to be negative, but I found that things were much better for me when I took a step back from it. Now obviously this does not apply to everyone here. I have met some wonderful people here on FA and continue to talk to them, but the few times I try to be a bit more active, I quickly regret it. You can he a furry but not a be a part of the furry community.
Here is the TLDR. Do what works for you. As long as you are happy and healthy (and, you know, not hurting others. Dont do that.) People should respect your decision. Life is too short to waste it on dealing with optional things that Make you miserable. If you ever want to chat , feel free to note me and we can discuss college stuff or whatever. Even if you just want to vent. If not, just take care of yourself. People may miss your art, but if it was causing you misery, they need to respect your choice to move on.