Hey, kids. I am incredibly grateful for your patience and good will. I've been having a really tough few months and I guess it's time to lay it out to you guys.

The first buyer's loan fell through, so we had to put the house on the market again. Luckily we got a second buyer right away, but that still means weeks of additional escrow and a much more complicated move. This is all my brothers business, and it's him whose is going to be seeing the profits of this sale. I'm renting a room from him at a ridiculously low rate, taking care of my aging mother, and living off of my brother's generosity as best I can while being as little of a burden as I can.

On top of that, my dog has gotten sick over the last week or so, and now is showing most of the signs of being in the early stages of diabetic ketoacidosis, which is a condition requiring immediate emergency care. Being flat broke, I am not entirely sure how I'm going to provide her that care, and worrying about that and all the other crap going on has eaten into my ability to focus on finishing commissions.

I've been sitting down to work every day, but its been such slow going as I've vacillated through some pretty intense bouts of melancholy. I don't know if I can call it depression because I can honestly say I've never really been depressed before, but this feels like the closest thing to depression I've ever known.

So commissions have been slow in coming. And all of my customers have been insanely patient with me in contacting me about their commissions. But every day I don't finish enough commissions is another day I'm not selling more commissions. And the longer I go without selling commissions, the more commissions I need to sell the next time I manage to catch up with my queue. I've run out of money and I have a pile of work still left to do. Anyone who has bought commissions from me before knows that I may not deliver on-time every time, but I deliver, dammit. And when a customer is unable to accept these delays and asks for a refund, I give them that refund. I wouldn't be able to look myself in the mirror if I didn't.

But the truth is, right now I have no money. I can't refund anyone. I can't pay my bills. I can't help my dog. But I am still working, however slowly, to try and fulfill the promises I've made to you all. If you read all this and want a refund, I can't give it to you, as much as I would like to. I have a credit score in the low 400s and a work history of two part-time jobs and a decade of bit-rate art selling on the internet. I live in one of the most economically depressed areas of the most expensive state in the Union. I don't have enough money to move to a cheaper state and no prospects anywhere. I am, in simple terms, a failure.

But I'm not giving up. This isn't me asking for pity, and I'm not trying to take advantage of anybody. This is me being as honest as I can with you all, and just maybe telling myself in concrete terms I can't shy away from that I don't know what I'm going to do. Some kind words are appreciated. All I can do is try to keep going forward and trying to get the work done to the best of my ability. Thank you for your patience.

So here's where we get to the part where I lose a lot of you. Because I'm no longer in a position where I can be too proud to ask for help.

I've put together a GoFundMe page here: https://www.gofundme.com/comfycushi.....-survival-fund

I'm asking for $400. That's enough to get me through June, allowing me to focus on catching up on my current commission list, and allowing me to take my dog to the vet.

I have over 4000 people watching my page. If just one in ten of those people donates a couple of bucks, it would pull me out of this tenuous position I find myself in.

And even if you don't want to or cannot donate, please boost the signal. Every little bit helps. And regardless of how this campaign goes, I am still plugging away on this commission list. I owe it to you all.

Anyway, it's time for me to get back to work.