So I haven't done anything for months, maybe years now. Work and university got me in a mess. I haven't had time to draw anything. Well that's partially a lie. I haven't wanted to draw anything. I think I got into some kind of dip in self confidence and esteem that I didn't want to output anything. Not to mention watching other people draw better than you can when they're 14 or 15 and you're 21 can really be a kick in the confident nuts (I don't know what that means either). But recently I have picked up the old Wacom (after fixing bugs with the tablet not working properly with Photoshop) and did some drawing and felt a way that I haven't felt since 2015. I had the drive to actually finish a drawing that I started. And that happens often with me; I don't have the courage to finish a sketch or I look at it and think it's shit so I stop. But I finished it, and liked how it came out. One of my biggest problems was that I tried too hard to be like Wontoon (something I got called out for a lot (Thx Dev, Askr and Eric)) , and when it didn't look like his artwork I just thought I was shit and stopped. Now I try and just do my own thing and not worry too much about what it looks like. I'm just getting started, I haven't been drawing for 10+ years. I've got to find my own style. Be inspired by the people you like but don't plagiarise.

Now what does this title mean? I wanna try and get back into the art game. But I wanna start fresh. As of this journal post all my pre 2018 stuff is getting thrown into the TRAESH (or the scraps, most likely the scraps). I have done things that I am still proud of prior to this, but eh. I'll put them into the scraps so I can get a relatively clean slate.
I don't plan to pull a 2017 and draw everyday. I burnt myself out quick and fell into the "this is shit" phase. I'll just draw whatever I want whenever I want (hopefully every month). I'll try and make whatever I post to be full and complete. No WIPs or sketches (maybe on my Twitter or something, hint hint). Maybe I'll get some commished artworks every once in a while.
These are the plans and hopefully I can stick to it. Hopefully this year I can finally get good scrub and pull myself out of the creative dip.

Also thoughts: I've been considering moving my arts to a new Fur Affinity account. I'm kinda sick of my account name being stufafpassw. People who leave notes and shouts think that it's my name and they call me stufaf. I wanna move to a new account with a name that's actually MY name and not a template that I've used since 2011 of systematically differentiating my online accounts (stuart***(three letter website code)password).
If I was to move to an account called toddletoon would ya's follow me?

(I live off of journal titles like that.)