I feel ridiculous. The word that comes to mind is "friendless," but I know that's not true, I have plenty who care about me and who I care about too

idk I'm in a funk. Some of my close friends are having drinks and I can't really drink with them and if I did drink I think I'd just get sadder. weehhh

I feel so stuck. I just wanna draw. Or-- I wanna get started at work so I can get paid so I can buy a tablet to draw with. And pay my dad back. And save up for a new computer so I can actually play my games, and not just play stuff that's 10+ years old, or stuff that isn't really demanding. I've been using a hunk of junk for years without any real way to upgrade it. One time I tried buying a new GPU to make it better, but this thing wasn't compatible and didn't have all the plugs I needed for it and asjdhsjgh

I just wanna draw my characters and make comics and stufffff