2 months ago, I was more or less having consistent nightmares, panic attacks, etc. and I didn't really trust anybody around me. I felt like it was my end of the line. I really didn't think I mattered to anybody and had I not been surrounded by other people I don't know what I would have done to myself.

Tonight, I went out for taco bell at 3:00 in the morning, I've been blasting anime music and Smash Mouth for the past hour and a half, and I'm going in for a job interview tomorrow. Or the day after that. It's in that timeframe somewhere.

I didn't realize how drastic this change was until just tonight and I'm very happy with how things are looking up right now. Like genuinely, I didn't believe anything would get better. And it took a good while, but I just feel like a completely new person. I feel confident in myself and I feel healthier. I'm not kept up at night by my own thoughts (most of the time), and on a good day I feel like I can take the world.

I am stunned.

Thank you to everyone who helped me get to this point and was there for me when I needed it the most, you're the best ❤️