In about a month I will be turning 23. Strange thing is I don't really feel like 23. I still live with my parents and my brother and honestly it doesn't feel any different then when I was a teenager. I still do pretty much the same things as when I was a teenager. Playing videogames listening to music and very rarely hanging with friends. Thats the only difference that me and my friends have less time to hang out due to them having jobs. Growing older have also dredged up some old memories. For example when I was younger I made a promise to myself that I would take my life if I reached 25 and still lived at home. Well 25 is just 2 years away and I don't see my situation improving any over the next 2 year. Although this is a promise from when I was about 12 and I dont think I will be keeping that promise.

Anyway a couple of weeks ago I had an episode of severe anxiety and depression and decided to go to hospital to get some help at the time. This time I tried going to another hospital in Uppsala instead of in Stockholm. The staff was a lot nicer and the place didn't feel like a prison. However I just got some emergency anxiety meds and then I went home. And now a couple of weeks later I got a bill from the hospital off 420 Sek (about 40$). This was unexpected as I usually only get a bill from the hospital if they had to arrange for transportation for me. From what I understood Uppsala belongs to another county than where I live and therefore I had to pay more. The bissare thing though is that I live in a county between Stockholm and Uppsala which means that I should be allowed to choose where I go to get medical help.

Anyway today was midsommardagen (midsummers day) and that is a celebrated holiday in Sweden so today was spent at home playing games and eating some good food. Other than that I haven't really done alot this summer. Most of my friends when I ask if they wanna hang out they are either haning out with family or streaming on twitch.tv. To the point that I haven't meet my friends in a couple of weeks now.

I was also away last weekend and visited my biological mother. She was doing okay out where she lives and we had a good time talking with eachother her me and my brother.

Anyway anyway. Thats about it for me so hope you've had a good day/night and I'm gonna try to be better at updating my journals more often.