Last night I got a bit angry at something that wasn't meant to be offensive (and to be fair I wasn't thinking about how I was accidentally spamming random people) and rage quit my late night stream of Detroit: Become Human leaving a journal entry where I said I was done with the stream and I was sorry bothering people.

I will admit now I don't think really clearly when I'm angry or depressed.

I didn't take into account that a few people that do watch and care about me took my journal entry as more than just a rage quit, and I wanted to clarify now that I'm fine; I'm not going down that path. I am very sorry I scared people into thinking that. I've been feeling very stressed out these days due to finances and my job and upcoming life-changing decisions that I need to make soon that's causing me some anxiety. On top of all that and trying to put effort into running my gamestreams, the more I realize that my streams or uploaded videos doesn't get a lot of exposure after several years start to weigh on my shoulders and I'm starting to consider calling it quits.

Thing is; I'm trying to reaffirm myself that I'm never going to be a big youtuber or twitcher or anything, and that I do my streams for the hell of it and anyone that happened to tune in, that's super. I also need to become better with getting back to work with my other projects and work out a schedule to remain focus on them instead of constantly going on hiatuses. SO I know the problem is on my side than it is on the viewers.

Idk. idk. idk. I'm just sorry.