We still alive here? A bit hairy stuff that went on this month. Sucks; hope those affected are doing well and condolences to those who have since lost friends and family over the years, including the founder of this website. Surreal stuff.

So...what the hell have I've been doing?

Sorry to say, not much. Nothing much really changed about my drive and emotional conditional since the last main Journal I wrote. No success in continuing my main werewolf series(es). I've written but I'm not sure I'm ready to share, or want to share. I haven't really sketched in a long time and afraid nothing is going to come out well. I'm...trying to get creative again, but the opportunities that are afforded to me are rare and motivation can get sucked out if anything little thing pops up to damper my mood or pull me away just when I'm ready to work.

And...on a personal note...
...I lost my dad last year. Surprisingly never dealt with COVID, but he did have bad COPD that was just getting worse, and didn't help that he dealt with some other medical complications throughout the COVID lockdown. I...honestly thought that as long as he got enough rest and if the docs could actually figure out some of those complications that was making it difficult to treat he could regain some measure of his life back. That sadly never happened...and the shock of the night he passed devastated the family and I.

We are trying to figure out what to do with the house right now. We can't keep living here since it's too large for just two people (about to be 3 as we are taking in an Uncle that can't afford to stay at his own house anymore...and has similar issues my dad had) and it's been falling apart that we can't keep sinking more repair costs just to make the damn thing look better to sell. IDK. My mom has been apartment/house shopping so we have some ideas coming in. And with my uncle we can at least help with some rent money for mom. I wish this wouldn't be a problem for me, let alone be able to move out for myself (which mom supports; she was more afraid I was staying with her for her sake), but this fucking housing economy is still in the shitter that no matter how much more money I am finally making it's never going to be enough to afford rent for most of this seemingly cheap apartments plus be able to actually...you know...LIVE. *snarls angrily*

...sigh...anyways...

I'm fairing. I had be promoted in my job but I had to turn it down and step back to part-time after 6-7 months. The increase in various responsibilities on top of newer procedures and just getting overwhelmed and the store cutting hours and not giving me enough coverage to help me do our fucking jobs, plus my mental and emotional state from my dad's passing and friend's going through their own depressions and trying to help my mom out with cleaning out the house (including one of our bathroom's blowing up from a snaking incident)...I was starting to have a bunch of breakdowns where I couldn't eat or drink anything in the morning, felt sick to the put of actually throwing up before heading to work, and just...just...

It was a nightmare. Still is but now it's a bit more tolerable having some weight lifted off my shoulders, and knowing my family supported my demotion and looking out for me.

So for now; I'm just doing my best to keep moving on and prepare for the future; whatever that is going to be.

Also; been trying to build my YouTube channel a bit. Mostly prerecords of various playthroughs with buddies. Lots of Elden Ring right now since my buddy and I finally beat the main game, and then jumped onto the DLC. Might be a small break when the videos run out due to personal stuff with my friend, but hoping to continue onward soon. Also need to really REALLY finish some series I started and haven't finished. Was really hoping my Tunic videos would be a little more...decent...but what evs (the last episode is my triumphant for some of its biggest puzzles).

I...make...no promises that I'm coming back with art and stories soon. I want to...but family and work and friends will come first.

If anything posts, just note.
...I'm going through my wolf phase right now. I might bite ~grrrr~

Anywho; just thought I finally update this damn thing and show I am alive to any of you all out there still reading these bits, still looking and reading at my old art and stories, and...well...cares. And I'm sorry to those hear I used to talk to often that I haven't spoken to in since my hiatus. I don't like using this excuse but...I'm an introvert, and it takes a lot...A LOT...to get me out of my shell. I hope everyone is doing alright in these trying times and wish you all better days.

Laters.

AWWWooooooooo!