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New job + My future in the furry fandom
7 years ago
A lot has happened since my last journal (the one that I didn't delete) but long story short, I got a new job at my local hospital (food nutrition services assistant) and I work tomorrow as of typing this journal. I also had the privilege of visiting 
Gamma064 and 
Piptoons in Tennessee for a week. Now that I'm back from Tennessee and it's the night before I start my new job, I have a lot on my mind about my future in the furry fandom, or more specifically, Meezoo's future.
My new job could yield some very exciting things for me and my character. I'll be able to afford better hardware and high-speed internet so I can finally start streaming! I'll be able to stream both art and video games, something I've been wanting to do for a long time! I'll also be able to commission art from artists I've been wanting to commission but couldn't afford to. I plan for there to be a lot of artwork of my characters and I couldn't be more excited about that. I'm finally going to have a more efficient means of building my audience and meeting like-minded people!
At the same time, I'm wondering if it's too little too late. I've been in this fandom since 2013 and, over the course of the last five years, I've had many incidents. I admit that some of those incidents were due to my own misconduct in the past, but most of it was only a response to people who gave me a difficult time with their misconduct. To be candid, I'm still reeling from some of the things that happened to me from 2015 to 2017, before I made an active effort to weed toxic people out of my life. It's worked out so far! I haven't had any incidents throughout 2018 and I intend to keep it that way. Yes I've become more introverted, but I've had less drama and negativity in my life because of it.
Without the presence of toxicity and toxic people, I can work towards having the positive social life I've always wanted to have. I can attract people who value wholesomeness and cute things, people who practice empathy and also share my ideals. As a matter of fact, I've already attracted such people, and I couldn't be more glad about that!
I've changed a lot over the past few years and I'm hoping the rest of the community sees that. That's why I'm wondering if it's too little too late. I've experienced a number of mishaps as Meezoo, especially from 2015 to 2017, and honestly, it's tempted me to abandon him as my fursona. I don't want to give up just as I'm about to reach the finish line, but I still haven't gotten out of Meezoo what I've been wanting as Meezoo, and so I'm left wondering if I'll ever achieve it as Meezoo.
Apologies for another lengthy journal. I really appreciate that some of you go out of your way to read these, and I don't plan on deleting this one either. I needed to say something, and I trust that my friends and followers will understand where I'm at. I'm excited about the opportunities this new job will grant me, but I'm also hoping it's not too late to do the things I've wanted to do as Meezoo. Thanks for reading.
Gamma064 and 
Piptoons in Tennessee for a week. Now that I'm back from Tennessee and it's the night before I start my new job, I have a lot on my mind about my future in the furry fandom, or more specifically, Meezoo's future.My new job could yield some very exciting things for me and my character. I'll be able to afford better hardware and high-speed internet so I can finally start streaming! I'll be able to stream both art and video games, something I've been wanting to do for a long time! I'll also be able to commission art from artists I've been wanting to commission but couldn't afford to. I plan for there to be a lot of artwork of my characters and I couldn't be more excited about that. I'm finally going to have a more efficient means of building my audience and meeting like-minded people!
At the same time, I'm wondering if it's too little too late. I've been in this fandom since 2013 and, over the course of the last five years, I've had many incidents. I admit that some of those incidents were due to my own misconduct in the past, but most of it was only a response to people who gave me a difficult time with their misconduct. To be candid, I'm still reeling from some of the things that happened to me from 2015 to 2017, before I made an active effort to weed toxic people out of my life. It's worked out so far! I haven't had any incidents throughout 2018 and I intend to keep it that way. Yes I've become more introverted, but I've had less drama and negativity in my life because of it.
Without the presence of toxicity and toxic people, I can work towards having the positive social life I've always wanted to have. I can attract people who value wholesomeness and cute things, people who practice empathy and also share my ideals. As a matter of fact, I've already attracted such people, and I couldn't be more glad about that!
I've changed a lot over the past few years and I'm hoping the rest of the community sees that. That's why I'm wondering if it's too little too late. I've experienced a number of mishaps as Meezoo, especially from 2015 to 2017, and honestly, it's tempted me to abandon him as my fursona. I don't want to give up just as I'm about to reach the finish line, but I still haven't gotten out of Meezoo what I've been wanting as Meezoo, and so I'm left wondering if I'll ever achieve it as Meezoo.
Apologies for another lengthy journal. I really appreciate that some of you go out of your way to read these, and I don't plan on deleting this one either. I needed to say something, and I trust that my friends and followers will understand where I'm at. I'm excited about the opportunities this new job will grant me, but I'm also hoping it's not too late to do the things I've wanted to do as Meezoo. Thanks for reading.
Yeah, making an active effort to distance myself from toxic people has helped shift my perspective a bit. It sucks feeling like you've become picky about who you associate with, but it's really for your own benefit. There's a lot of people on the internet who will suck the morale and positivity out of you, and it's important to be able to detect such individuals before they become an issue. Some people will say you're just being cliquey, but the truth is you have to be careful about who you let into your life, especially on the internet.
Jovial
~jovialskunk
Aw man, I think i know how you feel... I've had the same thoughts lately too. Truthfully I'm not sure what the "correct" choice is, it would be nice to stay who you are, that's for sure!~ I always try to do my best to please just my friends, and not worry too much about what others think, especially those who are just out to try and make the world worse. But it can be tough for sure... Regardless, things usually work themselves out...!
