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How to know you're f*cked up in the head..
7 years ago
I'm so annoyed about myself.. I mean, I know I'm autistic and my emotions doesn't really work. So I'm really awkward to be around irl.
So why am I annoyed?
Two days ago i found out my mom died to cancer and I felt nothing.. nothing! I love my mom, probably the only one that really understood me as I grew up. So yea, I'm annoyed that I can't feel anything at all about it..
Worst part was that she'd been dead for a week without anyone notifying me and I only found out when the funeral home called me and asked me to sign some papers. I had to call around to get hold of relatives just to find out what happened.
Well, I'm gonna go have ice cream now.
Also, f*ck cancer!
So why am I annoyed?
Two days ago i found out my mom died to cancer and I felt nothing.. nothing! I love my mom, probably the only one that really understood me as I grew up. So yea, I'm annoyed that I can't feel anything at all about it..
Worst part was that she'd been dead for a week without anyone notifying me and I only found out when the funeral home called me and asked me to sign some papers. I had to call around to get hold of relatives just to find out what happened.
Well, I'm gonna go have ice cream now.
Also, f*ck cancer!
Crow3000
~crow3000
that suck
RappyRaptor
~rappyraptor
Damn, sorry to hear :(
Zye1984
~zye1984
I'm similar, though I think my numbness to feeling things is both something I developed and something I've always had too. I can get sad about others but I also have trouble keeping strong feelings for people that may have hurt me in the past, or haven't seen in a while. I sometimes feel like I'm a monster that shouldn't exist.
Dwaggiemorph
~dwaggiemorph
OP
*nods* That does sound very similar to me. Though we are not monsters, just different and for a few things our way of handling them might even be better.
