Guys, I’m going to be honest. I’m so close to the point of not drawing anymore. My head keeps messing with me when I draw, which leads me into taking a break from commissions, art trades, and art I want to draw for myself. I didn’t want this to happen to me, and wasn’t expecting it at all. I’m just so stressed and self-conscious about my own art. To others, it may seem great, but it looks like garbage to me, and I can’t get it out of my point of view.

I don’t want to refund people because I can’t afford to and people really want their art drawn by me. I thought forcing myself to draw would make things work out, but it just suppresses me even more.with the things I’m trying to draw. People keep telling me to take breaks, but I’ve taken too many to the point that I have commissions piled up on me, and that’s my fault since I let this happen.

You can’t believe how many Patreon requests I have piled up as well as the current Patreon comic I haven’t worked on in two months. Still only have the first page finished.

I don’t know what to do anymore. I hate to want to quit, but I can’t. I just can’t. Too many people rely on me to keep going and not to give up, but it’s too hard. So all I can do is to attempt to work on art slowly.