Update: yeah, gotta little on my mind and right now I’m not in the mindset to work 100% on stuff here. I’ll try and get the last two requests out for the people who have them but right now I’m having to deal with planning my wedding, getting my kids ready for school and making sure my emotionally unstable son is ready to go back to college.

With all that I’m going to be taking a break, I cannot physically and mentally handle the stress of working on music, stories and rps all st once, while taking care of my life stuff. It used to be easy back when I had help, but right now I’ve kinda lost that help.

Breakdown: literally just look at the above paragraphs. I got so overworked that I curled up on my bedroom floor and had a panic attack for almost half an hour. My heart was pounding like crazy and I could not control myself. It’s no ones fault but I just can’t handle the stress until things slow down. I’m not accusing anyone but just please understand my activity is gonna plummet for a while.

I yelled at a friend even, someone really close to me all because I wasn’t stable enough to tell him the right way I needed space... I’m shattering so fucking fast

Advice: if you get married and than divorced, MAKE SURE THE OTHER PERSON WILL STILL BE RELIABLE! I don’t mean to sound aggressive but right now I’m also fuming by the fact I can’t rely on my ex to take care of a person he called a son. This kid I know on here and on google hangouts, he considers me his dad, and I try my best to be there for him, but in my current situation it’s almost impossible for me to help him out, and he can’t exactly fall back on my ex because his opinion of him is so low right now... so if you get married, either make t work or make sure they’re still reliable, because if not than you’re gonna struggle and suffer.

I know I said I’d stop bringing him up, but today finally pushed me over the limit when the kid who thinks of me as a dad said he felt sad because things felt so distant, and I can’t fucking help because my hands are tied in so many things. Today I was thrown over my breaking point when I learned my son can’t even rely on my ex to help him when I’m falling apart.

Get a relationship that works, don’t end up like me. Stressed, angry, depressed and bound. I’m totally useless to my own child and that pisses me off. I’ll be on sometimes but I’m taking a break, I’m past my breaking point and honestly I can barely take it. I’ll get requests done as soon as possible but for right now I’m falling apart.