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Life Situation(Rant)
7 years ago
So I haven't placed a journal since 2014 because I have been focusing on too many things.
My life currently feels like a mess. It also doesn't help when you suffer with mental health issues.
I moved out of my friends place due to a few things bothered me about living with them. We are still friends and stuff its just small things that would drive me crazy.
I am currently living on my own and now dealing with the pains of being a prince/princess.
I will admit I like name brand stuff and care so much about cleaning that I tend to clean too much and run out of wipes and soap a lot.
(Currently my place is a mess because of my depression which is having a vicious cycle on me)
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I am depressed because I am having issues with my job which in tails make me anxious to know my future lies.
I am depressed because I have no company to talk to (no animals/roommates)
I am depressed because I have to pay back a friend and currently spending too much money on things
I am depressed because my apartment isn't clean
I am depressed because I want an animal but know i can't take care of it (i can afford food for it/toys for it, but if I have to take it to the vet or emergency room I will fail to pay for it) or at least I feel like I cant.
I am depressed because my place is empty ( No TV, No couch, No dishes/cutlery for guests)
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I feel like I'm currently failing in life hard. It feels like I really shouldn't have lived this long because of my inability to survive on my own without anyone's help.
Just today I had to ask my mom for advice and if that doesn't work I have to ask my ex-roommate what to do, I have no self thoughts. Honestly i swear if someone said Kita go jump off a bridge I would most likely do it because I can not think for myself.
My life currently feels like a mess. It also doesn't help when you suffer with mental health issues.
I moved out of my friends place due to a few things bothered me about living with them. We are still friends and stuff its just small things that would drive me crazy.
I am currently living on my own and now dealing with the pains of being a prince/princess.
I will admit I like name brand stuff and care so much about cleaning that I tend to clean too much and run out of wipes and soap a lot.
(Currently my place is a mess because of my depression which is having a vicious cycle on me)
~~~~~~~~~~
I am depressed because I am having issues with my job which in tails make me anxious to know my future lies.
I am depressed because I have no company to talk to (no animals/roommates)
I am depressed because I have to pay back a friend and currently spending too much money on things
I am depressed because my apartment isn't clean
I am depressed because I want an animal but know i can't take care of it (i can afford food for it/toys for it, but if I have to take it to the vet or emergency room I will fail to pay for it) or at least I feel like I cant.
I am depressed because my place is empty ( No TV, No couch, No dishes/cutlery for guests)
~~~~~~~~~~
I feel like I'm currently failing in life hard. It feels like I really shouldn't have lived this long because of my inability to survive on my own without anyone's help.
Just today I had to ask my mom for advice and if that doesn't work I have to ask my ex-roommate what to do, I have no self thoughts. Honestly i swear if someone said Kita go jump off a bridge I would most likely do it because I can not think for myself.
