hiya fuzzies!

i just. i need to flail. about a book. this is my personal account, i can't do that here, right? XD i'll try to be vague so i don't spoil anything for anyone, i just have SO MANY FEELS.

back in early 2017 a book came out called Caraval. i worked at Barnes&Noble at the time so i saw it on the shelves pretty much every day. the cover totally mesmerized me even though there was nothing special about it - it was just pretty. i don't know how long it took me to buy it but eventually i caved and did do that.

i just got around to reading it about a week ago, and i promptly went to BN when i was about 2/3 through it because i NEEDED the second one right away. it was....well, very good. on the edge of my seat wondering what will happen next and how the story will unfold etc etc etc. i finished Caraval at like 6am one night and started reading Legendary right away because i honestly couldn't stop myself. but i only got through the prologue before i passed out lol.

WELL. let me tell you about Legendary. or rather let me NOT and instead flail incoherently because FUCK. this book made me feel more feels than i think i've ever felt about a book before. ever. and i've felt a lot of book feels. i almost threw it across the room to never be picked up again on multiple occasions because i was scared of what might happen and how it might play out, but then i DIDNT because i NEEDED TO KNOW. it's been hard to focus on drawing this week because this book is ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT. it was a little predictable in some places for for every one thing i guessed at, the author blindsided me with like FOUR OTHER THINGS. UGH.

i just. i can't. so i finished this book last night/this morning at like 8am. i had meant to go to bed at 6 but i HAD to finish it and those last couple chapters were a lot of stop-and-go because i was so anxious about what each new page would bring, and ALSO because i had to stop and take literal minutes to collect myself from what the pages DID bring.

and then i finally finished it.

and then i couldn't sleep for 3 hours because OH MY HEART. MY HEART. even know i can't stop thinking about it and my mind is just spinning and my emotions don't know what to do or which way to turn.

AND. i LEARNED. that there's only ONE MORE BOOK. and it takes place TWO MONTHS after the second one (what about all that time in between????? YOU CAN'T LEAVE ME HANGING ON TELLA'S BIRTHDAY!!!!).

GODS i thought i needed the second one when i was almost done with the first, but i didn't know NEED until i finished Legendary. i NEED Finale. i need it NOW.

and it doesn't come out. until may. 2019. i don't know if i can do it guys.

i don't.

know.

wow

what a ride.