Life is hitting a constant downfall... less and less people open up to a poor lowlife like myself... some people find a lowlife like myself looking for love, or someone to look up to as a family.... “creepy”... some people refuse to open their eyes to see the truth about multiple depression disorders mixed with anxiety disorders, mixed with autism and ADHD... people believe that emotions can be controlled... people refuse to see the truth about it; EMOTIONS AND DISORDERS CANNOT BE CONTROLLED! With that said... life.... withers away as we speak... the reasons to live in such a cruel and unforgiving world diminish... this poor sergal is forced to trust fewer people everyday.... I am getting less love everyday... my life withers away quicker everyday... I have seen the truth... about numerous people who I have looked up to not only as a friend, but as families... Mothers... fathers... they betrayed me... even the people in between... even regular friends, acquaintances... all of them.... I can’t wait for my end to come, but I am in no hurry to die... I hope this message gets out and spreads the truth; NOT EVERYBODY WILL GIVE GENUINE LOVE... not everyone cares... love those who don’t love themselves, help the disordered... the RIGHT way... care for those who feel nobody does... be a good person.... improve someone’s day.... spare a life...