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I FINALLY HAVE A HOME! YAY
7 years ago
After about 6 months of seraching for a flat neabry my studio I FINALLY signed a contract for one!
It was quite an experience going through like 2 months of a 3-4 hour ride every day to the place you work, as well as living in different kind of living communities in Berlin. Although, I had a positive time with nice and friendly new people, new thoughts and perspectives, staying for only a few weeks, before you are changing your „home“ again is quite exhausting. The thought of having no own retreat and sleeping place in 2 weeks for example was quite frighting for me. Also I am generally a person who is always completely freaking out, when I have not a secure plan, where and what is going on the next 5-6 months. Because of the decision of having an own music studio apartment in a main city before having a 100% fixed private apartment in the near of it, I had to get rid of the "planing ahead" thing.
I have tried to live day by day, as I was mostly not in hand to decide if and when I get a new home-base. I have tried to do not think to much of the future and burden myself to much with things I couldn’t change in that moment. It worked partly, or better said, it had to, but because of me being a freelancer (and I guess a lot of freelance friends know that), you always need to structure your schedule but also be flexible, always have buffers for the projects you do, you always have to be nice to everybody. Sometimes it can get very stressful and with a not secure living situation, it is difficult, that the work you do is not affected by that. I am fine and as said, it kinda worked, but the last couple of months I always had that restlessness, which I tried to escape by doing a lot of work and also traveling a bit, meeting new people etc., but it never worked out that well.
Simply, I am a person who needs things I can 100% count on (even surely that time frame taught me, that it won’t be possible, especially on things yourself would say, that you can to 100% count on) or least which gives an impression, that I can. Having an own small space for yourself, where you can relax, where you can go whenever you want, don’t have to worry about to leave in the next time and calm down, is giving you at least that impression of securence.
Now I can finally do, what I wanted to do the last weeks: planing ahead and focusing comfortably more on MAKING MUSIC (the damn reason, why I actually risked to going through this). Very soon more updates will come about the studio and studio household with the great Jan Brett as well as musical projects which gonna be released and revealed soon as well.
Sorry for the long text! I wish you all a wonderful weekend! Looking forward to share more creative stuff, collaborations and positive thoughts!
It was quite an experience going through like 2 months of a 3-4 hour ride every day to the place you work, as well as living in different kind of living communities in Berlin. Although, I had a positive time with nice and friendly new people, new thoughts and perspectives, staying for only a few weeks, before you are changing your „home“ again is quite exhausting. The thought of having no own retreat and sleeping place in 2 weeks for example was quite frighting for me. Also I am generally a person who is always completely freaking out, when I have not a secure plan, where and what is going on the next 5-6 months. Because of the decision of having an own music studio apartment in a main city before having a 100% fixed private apartment in the near of it, I had to get rid of the "planing ahead" thing.
I have tried to live day by day, as I was mostly not in hand to decide if and when I get a new home-base. I have tried to do not think to much of the future and burden myself to much with things I couldn’t change in that moment. It worked partly, or better said, it had to, but because of me being a freelancer (and I guess a lot of freelance friends know that), you always need to structure your schedule but also be flexible, always have buffers for the projects you do, you always have to be nice to everybody. Sometimes it can get very stressful and with a not secure living situation, it is difficult, that the work you do is not affected by that. I am fine and as said, it kinda worked, but the last couple of months I always had that restlessness, which I tried to escape by doing a lot of work and also traveling a bit, meeting new people etc., but it never worked out that well.
Simply, I am a person who needs things I can 100% count on (even surely that time frame taught me, that it won’t be possible, especially on things yourself would say, that you can to 100% count on) or least which gives an impression, that I can. Having an own small space for yourself, where you can relax, where you can go whenever you want, don’t have to worry about to leave in the next time and calm down, is giving you at least that impression of securence.
Now I can finally do, what I wanted to do the last weeks: planing ahead and focusing comfortably more on MAKING MUSIC (the damn reason, why I actually risked to going through this). Very soon more updates will come about the studio and studio household with the great Jan Brett as well as musical projects which gonna be released and revealed soon as well.
Sorry for the long text! I wish you all a wonderful weekend! Looking forward to share more creative stuff, collaborations and positive thoughts!
*hugs...
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