I don't really have the guts to talk to anybody one-on-one, so... Yeah. This will be the State of the Shark Address.

Hello, I'm Ferello, Another resident Abomination, and I'm an alcoholic.

It's nothing new for me to be posting a status update after an unexpected hiatus, but I'm pretty sure it is my first time to really explain it. I've been drinking. A lot. I used to drink a bit when I was stressed out, or when I wanted to make a day that was particularly shitty better, but in the last few months I've been drinking a lot more than normal. Considering I've always been a lightweight, a six pack of beer or a good chunk out of a bottle of vodka each night hasn't left me with much time to coherently socialize. More than that, I've been feeling bad about not talking to the few people that I feel something of a kinship with, and have decided that I probably can't deal my issues without help, without actually telling said help what they're doing for me... So, I'm going to be away for a bit longer.

I'm going off with my family and my sister who's fresh out of rehab on a much needed vacation and cruise to the Caribbean for the next month or so. While I haven't told any of them yet what is going on with my life, I feel like a supervised retreat with my mum will do a lot of good. I don't think I want to be completely sober for the rest of my life, but this is costing too much in money, and destroying the time that I think would be better spent elsewhere.

So... Yeah. Everybody I know has an idea on what I'm working with now. I can't with an honest heart wish anybody a long and happy life, so: Death, Destruction, and Chaos to all, and to all a better Halloween than mine.