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Writer's Block and Sex
7 years ago
(TL;DR I plan on doing more clean stuff and taking longer to get to the "good stuff" going forward. Please bear with me, and let me know what you think down below.)
So, it's no secret that my writing tends to be... sporadic at best. Truth be told, writing is both my most stressful and most enjoyable activity. It hasn't always been that way however, and lately I've been doing some thinking as to why.
Many years ago I used to be quite a prolific writer on RetroMUD. Before then I'd also done plenty of long form forum RP. Something definitely changed between these two times in my life. Part of it was a bout of depression I'd gone through that I've only recently begun to climb out of, but I don't think that's entirely it. Another large part is that I began doing a lot more erotic roleplay and writing erotic stories.
Now, I'm not saying that this is necessarily a bad thing, or that I plan to stop doing either. But as my focus shifted, I noticed a shift in the tone of my writing. I no longer get into my characters' heads quite as much, or spend time creating background fluff and doing world building. I set up the bare bones of a set that I require and get right to the action. It's not that I can't be bothered, quite the opposite. It's that little voice in the back of my head that refuses to go away.
"Nobody will care."
Every time I start adding details extraneous to the sex and fetishes, I find myself thinking that people will just scroll past it... or even admonish me for putting in a whole bunch of useless crap before the good stuff. Heck, even during the increasingly rare times that I RP I find my writing growing stale and repetitive simply because I get too self-conscious about doing anything that may "ruin the scene" by introducing elements other than what folks came to me for.
...I hate writing like that. I'm stuck in a perpetual loop where I look at what I've written and find it lifeless and repetitive, but any attempts to add more fluff and background to the world get shot down by my inner critic saying nobody came here to read about the stupid coffee in the local cafe.
I need to get back to my roots, do the kind of slice of life and character building I used to enjoy so much about writing. But at the same time, I'm frightened that I just won't be relevant anymore. I mean, nobody even cared about what I posted here before I began doing vore. I can't help worrying that if I just start posting boring stuff about people going about their day, if my vore stories involve a pleasant shopping trip or a day of video games before folks get slurped up, that the few fans I have will go away.
So, I guess what I'm saying is, please bear with me as I go through some changes. I can only hope people actually enjoy what I post going forward.
So, it's no secret that my writing tends to be... sporadic at best. Truth be told, writing is both my most stressful and most enjoyable activity. It hasn't always been that way however, and lately I've been doing some thinking as to why.
Many years ago I used to be quite a prolific writer on RetroMUD. Before then I'd also done plenty of long form forum RP. Something definitely changed between these two times in my life. Part of it was a bout of depression I'd gone through that I've only recently begun to climb out of, but I don't think that's entirely it. Another large part is that I began doing a lot more erotic roleplay and writing erotic stories.
Now, I'm not saying that this is necessarily a bad thing, or that I plan to stop doing either. But as my focus shifted, I noticed a shift in the tone of my writing. I no longer get into my characters' heads quite as much, or spend time creating background fluff and doing world building. I set up the bare bones of a set that I require and get right to the action. It's not that I can't be bothered, quite the opposite. It's that little voice in the back of my head that refuses to go away.
"Nobody will care."
Every time I start adding details extraneous to the sex and fetishes, I find myself thinking that people will just scroll past it... or even admonish me for putting in a whole bunch of useless crap before the good stuff. Heck, even during the increasingly rare times that I RP I find my writing growing stale and repetitive simply because I get too self-conscious about doing anything that may "ruin the scene" by introducing elements other than what folks came to me for.
...I hate writing like that. I'm stuck in a perpetual loop where I look at what I've written and find it lifeless and repetitive, but any attempts to add more fluff and background to the world get shot down by my inner critic saying nobody came here to read about the stupid coffee in the local cafe.
I need to get back to my roots, do the kind of slice of life and character building I used to enjoy so much about writing. But at the same time, I'm frightened that I just won't be relevant anymore. I mean, nobody even cared about what I posted here before I began doing vore. I can't help worrying that if I just start posting boring stuff about people going about their day, if my vore stories involve a pleasant shopping trip or a day of video games before folks get slurped up, that the few fans I have will go away.
So, I guess what I'm saying is, please bear with me as I go through some changes. I can only hope people actually enjoy what I post going forward.
Anyway, this isn't help so much as just... sympathy.