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7 years ago
Hey peeps. Its been a while, huh? Thought it was about time I came along with an update.
So a few things have happened since my last post, most not that great, unfortunately. This summer has been a bit of a doozy to be honest. Work got -real- stressful, working long hours and putting in a lot of unpaid overtime, against my better judgement. As this went on I started feeling the pressure and stress, snowballing gradually as time went on.
Through all of this things got worse when my grandmother, who had been unwell for time, unfortunately passing away. It hit me particularly hard in part due to the above, but also that I was close to her and she was the last of my grandparents to pass on.
Things came to a head when I broke down during my mid-year review in work and having an anxiety attack during my grandmother's funeral service, pretty embarrassing when my sister and aunt practically had to hold me up to stop me from passing out. Luckily I managed to compose myself and get some air at the end of the service, just as well considering I was one of the pall-bearers with my cousins.
I had gotten into a pretty dark place to be honest, and knew that I had to get myself checked out which luckily I had the sense to do as my anxiety and depression had obviously reared its ugly head again. I'm now on antidepressants which seem to be doing the trick as I'm in a much better place than before.
Looking back over the years, I'm pretty sure that I've always had depression for most of my adult life. What happened in 2011 probably should have opened my eyes to it, to be honest. Guess hindsight really is 20/20 One thing I will say from this experience is that I wouldn't wish it on anyone, and if anyone is ever in a dark place mentally, then -please- talk to someone. It could be your friends, family or whoever, just -talk- if nothing else. It's now apparent that my mum is developing anxiety and depression too, so I'm gently trying to persuade her to see the doctor. Hope she will soon.
On to a brighter note, my apartment is looking a lot more like home now, just got a few little jobs to put the finishing touches on.
I've also taken the plunge and have booked flights for Anthrocon 2019. Yes, at the ripe old age of 32 I will going to my first con XP
Anyway, hopefully I won't leave it as long before I'm back with an update. Hope things are good with everyone.
So a few things have happened since my last post, most not that great, unfortunately. This summer has been a bit of a doozy to be honest. Work got -real- stressful, working long hours and putting in a lot of unpaid overtime, against my better judgement. As this went on I started feeling the pressure and stress, snowballing gradually as time went on.
Through all of this things got worse when my grandmother, who had been unwell for time, unfortunately passing away. It hit me particularly hard in part due to the above, but also that I was close to her and she was the last of my grandparents to pass on.
Things came to a head when I broke down during my mid-year review in work and having an anxiety attack during my grandmother's funeral service, pretty embarrassing when my sister and aunt practically had to hold me up to stop me from passing out. Luckily I managed to compose myself and get some air at the end of the service, just as well considering I was one of the pall-bearers with my cousins.
I had gotten into a pretty dark place to be honest, and knew that I had to get myself checked out which luckily I had the sense to do as my anxiety and depression had obviously reared its ugly head again. I'm now on antidepressants which seem to be doing the trick as I'm in a much better place than before.
Looking back over the years, I'm pretty sure that I've always had depression for most of my adult life. What happened in 2011 probably should have opened my eyes to it, to be honest. Guess hindsight really is 20/20 One thing I will say from this experience is that I wouldn't wish it on anyone, and if anyone is ever in a dark place mentally, then -please- talk to someone. It could be your friends, family or whoever, just -talk- if nothing else. It's now apparent that my mum is developing anxiety and depression too, so I'm gently trying to persuade her to see the doctor. Hope she will soon.
On to a brighter note, my apartment is looking a lot more like home now, just got a few little jobs to put the finishing touches on.
I've also taken the plunge and have booked flights for Anthrocon 2019. Yes, at the ripe old age of 32 I will going to my first con XP
Anyway, hopefully I won't leave it as long before I'm back with an update. Hope things are good with everyone.
Loosing a grandparent is difficult, as I found out with my grandfather passing this summer as well, so you have my complete sympathy!
Its great that you got checked out- Anxiety and Depression are no fucking jokes. Hang in there and be sure to check in with your Psychologist regularly (Something I myself need to remind myself to do!) And please please please poke me whenever you need the help! My notes and inbox are always open!
Its great to hear from you again, and I hope things get better!