I’m sorry for inactivity the last year and a half. I’ve been struggling with personal stuff and finishing school. I’ve had my tonsils removed this year and found out that I have 3th degree sliding in my lower back.


I’ve been at the hospital several times because of my lower back and found out that I need surgery. I was at the hospital yesterday to know more about this surgery which I actually was supposed to know more about in May, but didn’t get an appointment before yesterday. I was quite surprised to know that it’s 10% chance for me to get worse after the surgery, I knew it was a risk but I thought it was like 2% chance.. I’m so angry because if the doctor had taken me serious the first time I went with my back pain it wouldn't have been an complicated surgery to do. I’ve had this problem since 6th grade and the only thing the doctor told me back then was that I was to fat. he didn’t even check if it was something serious which it was.


I’m scared and to know that I can get worse is hard to digest. I struggle everyday to even function like an normal person. The pain is so bad and I even struggle with getting out of bed in the morning. I can’t work with this back pain and if I get worse after the surgery I might never get to work at all. Then I have 14 years of school I can’t even use..


The sliding of my lower vertebral’s are pretty bad and it should have been operated a long time ago. Then the chance for getting worse would be like non existent…


so this is why I haven’t been drawing so much lately because I don’t have any energy because of all this happening in my life at this point.

~Sierra