I know I made, and scrapped, a journal like this but...given a recent incident with another artist, (not going into details vastly), whose work and world I was invested in and almost got to interact in via a forum...I'm feeling, not necessarily hollow, (I feel better after emotionally getting over it yesterday actually though it may take more time to mentally get over it, there's a difference), but...like I need something to replace it. A world or lore I can get invested in, and interact with the creator and/or fans of it through role-play or OOC.

Does anyone have any suggestions whether they are a part of said fandom or not? They do not need to be centered around a particular...fetish or interest I would say. Bear in mind I'm already reading Shine by  BabyStar and Regressive Tendencies by  Kammypup where the lore I was about to delve into had a bit of...eh...militaristic/base-ops/r&d, (Idk how to summarize its branches as one unit really), hierarchy in addition to the characters present, so maybe something like that.

Or it could just be an rp forum with that sort of system, (in addition to more civilian things to do beyond militaristic work, since even privates or generals need some R&R chances.

To summarize the incident in an emotional sense. Imagine being at the gates of an area you could get lost in, explore and you've seen such wondrous things about and shortly after stepping forth into it...you get booted and branded in a sense by the creator for accidentally missing the trash can so to speak.

In other words, so close to enjoying something, allowed in, and kicked out before you could truly enjoy it, leaving you feeling like you not only missed out but...are missing something, mildly longing to make up for that booting.