before i even start ranting, please do not comment that things will get better, im sick of hearing it

yet again this year i have been an utter waste of life, been refused mental help assesments to diagnose problems
been on the recieving end of backlash due to my mums drinking more times than i can count
...you know what? fuck listing it all i cannot be fucked with it anymore, nothings worth the effort, not even sharing my feelings