Theres a reason why this is big, so to those that know me. They are gonna be happy to read this. To those who already know my situation. Just hit Ctrl + F and the word PIE to go to the end.

To those who don't know here's some light on my situation

The story of Aly's living situation CURRENTLY (it was worse in the past)

So currently, I lived with my mom for years, she technically a really nice person. When she's not drunk, which mind you is freaking nearly 70% of the week whenever she is awake. It was 90% but by some miracle, she cut back a little. Note, she's not a light drinker, she drinks straight vodka and nothing else. During the 70-90% of the time, i was the adult in the family even before I was 18. I was driving her to her "friends" and had to pick her up when she could hardly even call me over the phone and had to have someone else call me. (fun fact, I was on speed dial, all she had to do is hold down the number 2, but ill get into the technology bit later ) So I threw out my back a lot of times having to carry her to the car and to the house, then later the 7 story apartment, we were on the top floor.
WHEN THE ELEVATOR WAS OUT FOR A WEEK YOU CAN IMAGINE THE HOURS I SPENT IN THOSE STAIRS.
In public though, as I got older it got harder on me mentally, because I started to grasp the situation I was in, and she was really mean to me, because I wasn't successful, or had a job, or was in college, etc. (mind you I supported myself through college later and got a job, and she bitched at me for not getting a better job when I freaking couldn't. I went through 4 jobs so far. One where I had a gun held to my face being a door to door salesman, and another when I worked in a roach-infested store and got cuts from handling broken glass candles and damaged isles. My last two jobs, as not as glamorous as they are, HAVE BEEN WAY BETTER ) When I was somehow able to "pick her up" despite my job and college at the same time, I was carrying her on my back like she was a kid. Im roughly 6'
shes 5'4". Everyone thought I was kidnapping her, threatened to call the cops on me. NO ONE OUT OF ALL THE TIMES I HAD TO DEAL WITH THIS EVER OFFERED TO HELP WHEN I HAD TO WALK MILES TO THE DAMN CAR BECAUSE CITY PARKING IS ASS. I was always the fucking criminal apparently, and I just wanted to give up so bad. Even looking back I wish I could have explained myself to everyone who gave me fucked up looks. Anyway, fast forward when she goes to jail for DUI because I was at work at the time. No one was around to deal with the house but me, her family didn't give a flying fuck about her, my dad was a piece of shit, literally. It was just me and her, but now me.
So fast forward, shes out of jail, promised me she would stop drinking..that lasted....a week, back to normal routine, except she cant drive anymore and had to sign her car off to me or else it would get impounded because she couldn't register a vehicle in her name and lacked a license now.
She started to mooch off other men and sell her self out for fun times, ill not explain all of them, ill just explain the best one.
There was this creepy guy, who used 2 fake phone numbers to text my mom " We got your son, we know the school he goes to, we knew his schedule, if you don't respond in the next 5 minutes or call the cops we will hurt him"
MEANWHILE IM THE ONE WHO READ THE TEXT WHILE SHE WAS IN THE BATHROOM BEFORE I GO TO SCHOOL BECAUSE I MIRACULOUSLY OVER SLEPT BY SOME MIRACLE.
Called the cops, traced the number back, asshole got arrested, changed my moms number, she started seeing people less, though eventually
she met this one dude, whos a lazy piece of crap, belittles her, has two dogs that shit all over the place and doesn't clean up after them, yells at both of us......and then...moves in with him......
ITS SAFE TO SAY THAT T HESE LIFE CHOICES ARENT SO GREAT SO FAR!?

oh fun fact, 2 months later, SURPRISE HE HAS A KID FROM OUT OF NOWHERE COME IN, doesn't take care of either my mom or the kid, now the kid is being taken care of by my mom , being put through school. by my mom.
AND THE KID LITERALLY INSULTS HER, CALLS HER A BITCH AND DOESNT EVEN EAT ANYTHING BUT PASTA AND CANDY
Im literally pissed, this is still going on, im just giving the general details at this point, basically. Now I have to deal with a drunk, a slob, a brat, 2 untrained dogs.

I wanted to stay to get my bachelors, but my scholarships are dipping out and I can't support myself through college anymore. I have an AS in Computer Programming, but no job experience what so ever. I ALMOST got an internship, but since I had to drop college, they took only current college students so fml..
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Anyways PIE , now im moving to Ohio to live with  thatoneguyouknow who has been my best friend since I been here, I actually visited him before and had a good time, I am greatful to have someone to be with thats not toxic or a piece of shit to help me out of this situation. I am gonna try getting a job up there, for who knows what to be honest. and hopefully go to college after a year so i can be an in state student. It's not gonna be easy since I never paid a rent before ><, but I am gonna try my best and move forward. Sanity comes at a cost XD

Honestly, I am nervous that I am gonna be a huge failure that my parents always said i will be. Safe to say I never had a supportive upbringing, so like...major anxiety here ...
UGHH TRYING TO BE OPTIMISTIC DAMMIT!

I LOVE YOU GUYS BASICALLY, THANKS FOR READING, STICKING AROUND, IF I GET IN A CAR ACCIDENT OR SOMETHING, THIS IS THE LAST YOU WILL HEAR FROM ME XD, I will make another journal when I am safe. Ciao