So, I've been around for quite a while. In fact I pretty much consider FA and DA a way to relax after dealing with a stressful life all day. Though as time passed I noticed that such sites have been becoming a nightmare for me. Not because the art, nor the roleplayers XD You're fine guys. keep doing you.
The main issue is all the rumors and friends I keep losing either because of them or because of misunderstandings.

We all do stupid things. We all make mistakes. But what makes us unique is we can learn from them and to never repeat them again. After all, I'm turning 20 in February so I have plenty of time to find out what flaws I have to work on. I know I'm young, but I see that as a blessing since it gives me so much to learn.
With that said. I honestly don't know if I'm going to be around much longer. Dealing with those who only care for my character and never actually bother understanding me and only understanding what they want to has been making things very hard for me. I'm not perfect but I am Human, I have a heart and ever since I got more known it's been hurt so badly I honestly don't know if I can recover. So I'll do a bit of thinking but if I realize the pain isn't worth it then I might just quit for good.
The memories I had here were a mix of bad and good but I want to finally feel free. lately I've been feeling trapped and it's caused me to act in ways that just isn't me so that I can please those around me. It just isn't right, no one deserves to go through such a mental trauma that they can't even dream. i don't remember the last time I actually slept. Each time i do, it feels like a endless cycle of migraines.

Sorry for the rambling but I just felt like I needed to let everyone know, just in case I were to actually leave for good. i do consider all of you my friends and it pains me to say all this but I want to find my own happiness, not give it all away just to be an empty shell. I hope you all have a great night/day and if you read this all the way through then you're amazing.