well, we haven't talked a lot, but it's your desicion to what to do to your gallery, and nice that you have an better mood :D

Hrm....That's severely disappointing. While I am happy for you and your increased mental stability, I do admit that it is rare to find someone interested in the same things I am; At this point though you can do with your own things what you want. But I will miss you and them.

Oh I still have the interest. I'm just going more private with it. x3

B...But stomp and squish buddies? Can I be one? XD

Hoping for a quick mood recovery, do you, folks will be here for ya no matter what ya decide :D

Oh these meds have been a godsend. Right now I feel a way I've never felt in my entire life!

Oh... Oh, what went so wrong in the immediate aftermath of your victory that you lost the war entirely and forever?! I did sense quite strongly your clarity came at the cost of intensive shame and self-consciousness, but even so, you seemed quite motivated. Was it entirely the self-loathing and "cringe" that accompanied the altered state, or did a crisis happen? Maybe the meds stopped working- or they ultimately worked so well, you careened into the other end of the spectrum and off a proverbial cliff from which there would be no return.

It's more haunting and dismaying when someone kills themselves so soon after they report success, or they were generally outwardly happy in life and some trauma or emergency compelled them to invoke that one-way escape option (Inkbunny had a case like #2 a while back- the terror that caused him to do that and announce his departure must have been indescribable). Here, I'm mystified more than anything. This was just too cruel, for someone rejoice at a major success which quite possibly would be the thing to do them in within a month. The gallery purging just made it all even more lamentable.

I wish I had been positioned to prevent this somehow, the fact I hadn't ever heard of you before 1 hour ago notwithstanding.

Its understood. I'll miss you

Well, I'm not *leaving* XP

I ment your draws! They were great!

I'll miss you, but I'm glad you're doing better!

Well, that's good to know. You've basically preserved his soul as an artist, more or less. He ended his life soon after this journal despite the progress and enthusiasm he reported.

Hello Oneki,

We’ve never met in person. But we did speak to each other online often through our usernames. We spoke a lot from 2015-2018. You were one of the most unique people I had the privilege to speak to. You had a creative imagination; you created lovely and intriguing characters during your time on earth. You were a funny, smart and kind individual. You will be missed dearly. Thank you for all the times you've spoken to me throughout the last few years. I'm glad to have known an interesting person like you. You had an amusing outlook on life, you were wise and you were patient.

Oneki, I really wish you and I had more time to talk. I could really use your company now since we had so many things in common. I have no idea what the afterlife is like but I can only hope your spirit is in a peaceful place right now. You were too good for earth. I'm very sorry that you suffered. Thank you very much for your words of wisdom. I'll always cherish your advice to me. I’ll always take it to heart and I’ll never forget it. You know the last time we spoke to each other was over a month ago as I’m typing this message. I very much enjoyed the discussions we had. I’m curious to know what your thoughts are about the different things that are happening in the world and about the new art that’s being shared right now. You really loved art. I’ll look forward to our next discussion, whenever that’ll be.

When former Nintendo president Satoru Iwata died, his close friend and colleague, Shigesato Itoi, wrote this eloquent eulogy in remembrance of him. I think his words sum up how I feel about us. And so, I’ll end this off with his message with my own flair mixed into it.

Farewell Charles.

“No matter the farewell, I think the most appropriate thing to say is “we'll meet again.” We are friends so we'll see each other again. There is nothing strange about saying it. Yeah. We’ll meet again.

Even if you didn’t have the chance to put into words how sudden it was going to be, how far you’d be traveling, or how you went much earlier than expected, I know you went wearing your best.

You always put yourself second to others no matter what, helping anyone who needed it whenever they needed it. You were that kind of friend. Although you may have been a little selfish for the first time ever by taking this journey.

The truth is though that I still don’t believe any of it. I feel like I am going to receive a message from you on Telegram asking me about my art. I wouldn’t mind if you were to talk to me like always if I have some free time. If you did, I’d ask how you’re doing or what new idea you have.

Still, “we’ll meet again.” It would be great to hear from you whenever and wherever; I’ll being poking you too. I’ll message you if I have something to discuss or if I want to tell you a great new idea I have.

We’ll meet again.

Then again, you’re here with me now.”

This was an extremely emotionally influential, and extremely carefully and well constructed, final message. It also reminds me of the extraordinary and cruelly tragic phenomenon of people committing suicide only to precipitate a chorus of people relaying to the world that they were so well liked and inspirational and the like- things they will never hear and which would have most likely been extremely imperative to their survival had they arrived a very short time before. Of course, no one can be blamed for this because no one would have had a reason or impetus to communicate such things to a person whose death they have no reason to fear or sense is imminent. .

Have fun in Hell ya Godless weirdo mook😒

Anyone have his art saved and willing to share?

This is very late, but there is a profile with all of his art and you can look at the way back machine too, it's there