Just to be like. Super upfront, my life has been kicking me in the face for like 2 years now. I've always kind of struggled with feeling okay, but the last 2 years have just been some of the most stressful of my life. I was hoping this break from commissions I'm taking would help me focus on myself and do some personal art, but stuff just keeps happening and I haven't even been able to draw much for myself.

To put it really short and spare the details, basically, my house was pretty much taken from me and my dad and two younger siblings by my older brother and his girlfriend and their kids he let move in without permission 2 years ago. I was powerless to do anything since only my dad was able to do anything about it(and he was overwhelmed with life at the time and tried his best but only recently got serious about it), they constantly lied and started shit with everyone, so I just decided to leave because my stress threshold is really low. I moved in with a friend in her house even though I really wasn't comfortable with being here this whole time. The people in my house would constantly start shit with people even when I wasn't living there, and at my friend's house its really not much better with constant fighting and even someone threatening everyone here.

Recently, the people in my house finally moved out so I am able to move back in. But we have been working on the house for weeks because they trashed it and it isn't ready to move into yet. And I am unable to do much to help right now because I got surgery a week ago and I already worked too hard yesterday and hurt myself.

I mean I guess its good news for the future that they're gone and I'm able to move back in soon, it's just been a lot of work. And it takes me a long time to comfortably adjust to change. I pretty much just now started getting semi-comfortable living with my friend. But hopefully it'll be less of an adjustment going back to my old home. So maybe my life will start sucking a little less and have a lot less stress soon.

I guess the purpose of this is to just explain why my art has been so sporadic and why commissions have been closed so long. I don't know when I will open commissions again, but I want to be able to draw for myself again for a while after my life calms down.

This is a little longer than I expected it would be, so thanks for reading.