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Today Is My Birthday *RANT*
7 years ago
So today is my birthday, and usually I have a really shity birthday. So far the only one that wasn't shity was last year when my ex-husband came home from the Army on my birthday. A whole year later and everything is just fucking garbage. My parents didn't call me today. I had a rough day at work and got yelled at by everybody. I have to play Make Believe just to get out of being kicked out of my current place of living because the roommate / landlord who is renting me a room in his basement doesn't like me. And my ex made it very clear that he doesn't want to fix anything with us but he'll play pretend money. But he's not doing it for real. I know that this is me airing out my dirty laundry right now, and I apologize, but I am just so fucking hurt. Why do I even exist? Why was I even born? Today was a day that shouldn't have fucking happened. I tried to be positive, I tried to look at today has a spoonful of sugar instead of a spoonful of salt. I was trying to be optimistic about everything today and everything just slapped me back in the face...
Maybe it is worth to drop it all usual and start all over again?
Anyway, this usual is not good for you.
But we both have heavy baggage hanging on us. Weither it's from toxic friends we can't give up because we have no friends, old fears from past relationships, or even our own parents constantly reminding us that we're failures...
The mission of parents is to help children get on the wing.
And do not humiliate them, spitting in the soul.
Disgusting, self-confident and hypocritical generation X.
Fuck them.
It seems to me that you and your husband really should not give a damn about everything - and run away.
As we say in Russia: There will definitely be no worse.
But I agree my parents arent the best. My dad is the lesser evil. My mom however loves to rub it in my face that her life is harder than mine.
"You have a roof over your head, you shouldn't be depressed."
"You have rent and a phone bill to pay. Feel lucky. I have to pay for my car, my house, for 4 peoples food, my medication, blah blah blah."
My mom wasnt always this way though. Her ex poisoned her when she left my dad for him. Thata when it all changed.
... Can I be wrong, or do you live in the United States?
In this case, you can apply for a free plot of land in Alaska.
In my opinion - the perfect option to start all over again.
Well ... Probably because this is my dream - that's why I mentioned it.
I can't do it, but I guess you can?