Hello to thouse of you who still read my journals and are wondering where I have been.

First off, thank you to all the recent favs and new watchers.

So...where has this birdbrain been?

The last couple of years have been and are rough. My art and writing block have been persistent with few ports in the storm.

I have been suffering with multiple bouts of severe depression and ptsd episodes. That was compounded with having to make a personal sacrifice (won’t go into details publicly) and the loss of 2 family members in close succession to each other.

This has tested one of my very few redeeming qualities of being able to endure a lot.

Before anyone jumps the gun, I am fine and no I am not suicidal. I have an extremely strong survival instinct (hence the endurance).

I have had a couple of creative episodes and am glad those involved were happy with the work.

I am just tired and in pain. I am trying to snap out of this and start art up again and am considering restarting my gift art like I did in the past.

I just wanted to...I guess needed is a better term, to vent what is going on and to let you know that I am here, in pain, but am ok.

Not looking for sympathy or anything, but more understanding and also updating you all on what is going on.

I will endure. I will make it out ok. It will just take time.

If you made it this far, please know I appreciate you and am glad to be in your life however much or little that is.

-=G=-