well, kind of feel like just not being, curling up in some corner by myself and shutting off. tis the season i suppose but meh feeling like nothing but a lurking weirdo loser lately. maybe it's just me i do't know but i feel like i'm just an annoyance to people, some worthless hunk. being broke doesn't help at all, no real way to get out and do things either. well pretty sure no one really will read this so eh just venting out things somewhere I figured it won't bother anyone.