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well screw you too december
7 years ago
so that physical health scare mentioned... it aint gettin less scary.
short of it: next week i need a biopsy.
cancer cw and details for below
basically its lookin pretty likely i will have a cancer in a part of my body i never really wanted to begin with? and have been actively trying to remove? but due to gatekeeping and general transphobia in the medical field, i have had to go years without doing that.
and in those years the concerns i've had about both the dysphoria it caused me and the pain i was in -pretty constantly- were brushed off. either i was too young or i was just paranoid (real sick of the 'crazy trans man' stigma) or it was my 'biological clock' ticking... just dont worry about it lol!!!! now sit down and prove youre Trans Enough to remove them, stop Making Up Stories to Get Them Removed :))))
so ... i was finally talking to a plastic surgeon who was used to dealing with transgender men who wanted chest reconstructive surgery and, of course, he actually took my concerns seriously. he ordered a diagnostic mammogram which my General doc downgraded to routine...
which meant that one week after the first mammogram, i needed a -second- mammogram with a doctor present, and an ultrasound, and following THAT....had to wait a week for the data to learn really what the situation is...
see. there's a breast abnormality medical scale used. it's called BI-RAD. it goes from 0-6. zero being "no data" and six being "confirmed cancer from additional testing" with 1-5 being your cancer risk according to the imaging.
i'm a BI-RAD 5.
that means i have a 95% chance of breast cancer.
if they'd let me get rid of my tits years ago, i would not have this cancer, but because Trans Dont Know What They Want With Their Bodies We Must Protect Them From Themselves is the prevailing attitude in society....... i probably have cancer. weeeee
things to consider before you freak out on my behalf tho?
1- it isn't the 60s anymore. cancer treatment has come really far. especially breast cancer treatment! odds are really good that with proper treatment i will fully recover. especially cuz i don't wanna keep these fleshbags in the first place amirite.
2- freaking out doesnt really help me, it kinda makes me feel worse. what i need right now is to keep positive and uplifted. and probably draw a lot of gay ffvii fanart and shit, but yknow, thats kind of an aside.
3- there's still a very slim chance i don't have cancer and that this dark lump that is Highly Suspicious For Malignancy is in fact just an alien parasite that's burrowed into my flesh or something. i'll know for sure sometime after the 26th, which is when my biopsy is scheduled.
.... but either way, it's kinda got me ready to stand in the center of a field and flip the double bird at the sky. what's up furries, 2018 fucking sucked and it still didn't kill me. suck it, 2018.
short of it: next week i need a biopsy.
cancer cw and details for below
basically its lookin pretty likely i will have a cancer in a part of my body i never really wanted to begin with? and have been actively trying to remove? but due to gatekeeping and general transphobia in the medical field, i have had to go years without doing that.
and in those years the concerns i've had about both the dysphoria it caused me and the pain i was in -pretty constantly- were brushed off. either i was too young or i was just paranoid (real sick of the 'crazy trans man' stigma) or it was my 'biological clock' ticking... just dont worry about it lol!!!! now sit down and prove youre Trans Enough to remove them, stop Making Up Stories to Get Them Removed :))))
so ... i was finally talking to a plastic surgeon who was used to dealing with transgender men who wanted chest reconstructive surgery and, of course, he actually took my concerns seriously. he ordered a diagnostic mammogram which my General doc downgraded to routine...
which meant that one week after the first mammogram, i needed a -second- mammogram with a doctor present, and an ultrasound, and following THAT....had to wait a week for the data to learn really what the situation is...
see. there's a breast abnormality medical scale used. it's called BI-RAD. it goes from 0-6. zero being "no data" and six being "confirmed cancer from additional testing" with 1-5 being your cancer risk according to the imaging.
i'm a BI-RAD 5.
that means i have a 95% chance of breast cancer.
if they'd let me get rid of my tits years ago, i would not have this cancer, but because Trans Dont Know What They Want With Their Bodies We Must Protect Them From Themselves is the prevailing attitude in society....... i probably have cancer. weeeee
things to consider before you freak out on my behalf tho?
1- it isn't the 60s anymore. cancer treatment has come really far. especially breast cancer treatment! odds are really good that with proper treatment i will fully recover. especially cuz i don't wanna keep these fleshbags in the first place amirite.
2- freaking out doesnt really help me, it kinda makes me feel worse. what i need right now is to keep positive and uplifted. and probably draw a lot of gay ffvii fanart and shit, but yknow, thats kind of an aside.
3- there's still a very slim chance i don't have cancer and that this dark lump that is Highly Suspicious For Malignancy is in fact just an alien parasite that's burrowed into my flesh or something. i'll know for sure sometime after the 26th, which is when my biopsy is scheduled.
.... but either way, it's kinda got me ready to stand in the center of a field and flip the double bird at the sky. what's up furries, 2018 fucking sucked and it still didn't kill me. suck it, 2018.
You're gonna kill this problem way faster than it can kill you!
suddenly everyone is so concerned for my health and taking it so seriously and offering apologies and cautioning me not to freak too much and im like lmao fuckers i tried to tell you this months ago..........yall act like its news........just work faster now thx
Let's hope it's not cancer.
And if it is, let's hope you can make a quick and problem-free recovery.
Nonetheless, I'm still thinking of you, and just let me know if you need anything, my pally!
Hugs
Bunners
Here's hoping that it's that 5% not cancer, and/or if it is they get it all when they do the surgery.
God. How do doctors get so much education to be so stupid.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ni9TQHOsHUQ
Hopefully it's completely treatable. I had something on my back identified, removed, biopsied, and told that I was in the clear. Went through the "I have cancer" depression that goes with a diagnosis. Hopefully this'll be a quick fix for you.