I'll be honest I don't know where to start. To my friends i'm sorry. I know I havn't been the best of friend or really a friend at all not wanting to talk or anything this past year. Instead trying to find solace in my games. The truth is that I have been very antisocal, because of my dad. For almost most of the year he was put in a retirement home. He wasn't doing to good. His life was catching up to him hard. While he was there he lost a leg to gang green, while one arm and his other leg were to swollen to use. He lost all the fat and muscle in his body while he was bed ridden. Monday morning around 11 pm while me and my mom were rushing to get to his side his heart beated for the last time. I know it's no excuse for not being there, talking, or being a friend but now that i'm not watching my dad wither away infront of me i'll be more like my old self. I has taken me all day to write this... Though truth be told i'm not even sure why I am. Most of my friends don't even watch my fa.