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Not all bad. I think.
7 years ago
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So what I thought was a submission removed by administration was actually someone going out of their way to track down all the comments and favorites they gave me, and removing them.
Then there's the watch and unwatch thing that's been going on all week, probably from the same person.
I'm not going to go through the trouble and figure out who and was and talk to them. Getting pretty tired of the sheer amount of pettiness always being thrown my way. I'm an easy target because I don't make a fuss or get in people's faces, and that's unfair.
I've said from the beginning that I don't hate anyone, that I don't want problems with anyone, that I don't mind talking, but it's never enough.
If I'm not hurting the way some people want me to, or feeling the way they want me to, or reacting the way they want me to, they just keep at it. On and on and on for as long as it takes.
I have VERY big ears. Some of the biggest in the fandom. If you have something to say, then say it, dagonit. I'm not angry, just wonder why people keep.... wait, what the heck kind of word? lol.
Ugh, this is not how I wanted to start this journal off. I... There is a journal I want to make. One I think I have to make especially because of somewhat recent events. But it's been a while since I've made this type of journal.
There is a very specific way it has to be made, and I'm finding it difficult to really proceed onward. But I think I'll get it.
Anyway, what I was going to start with is that things haven't been all bad this year.
I've been learning a new language at a decent... well a slow rate. But I've been putting in consistent time. Even if that time is just 5 to 10 minutes a day, heh heh.
I've played some pretty good games. Hollow Knight. Horizon: Zero Dawn. GTA V. I recommend people play those at least once.
I've been able to successfully cook a few dishes. Some I've wanted to make for ages, and some I've never made before.
I have a daughter now. Even more hassle than the first kid, but eh, I like her, heh.
I had my first kid's birthday today! ...But it wasn't very glamorous. I kept trying to save it, but... I suck. I admit. I wish I did'n't suck. Bleh. I'll try to do something else for him, or rather both of them, soon. Having no money sucks...
I haven't really made any new friends this year. In fact I think... I might have lost more than whatever I made. I certainly don't want to lose anyone, but people seem to leave and never want to come back...
BUT I think I've gotten closer to loving myself! That's important, right? Heh heh. ...Please don't look at me like that.
Um... I can't really think of anything else. Wow, that short paragraph was my entire year.
*sigh* Where's the sad face emoticon when you need it?
Then there's the watch and unwatch thing that's been going on all week, probably from the same person.
I'm not going to go through the trouble and figure out who and was and talk to them. Getting pretty tired of the sheer amount of pettiness always being thrown my way. I'm an easy target because I don't make a fuss or get in people's faces, and that's unfair.
I've said from the beginning that I don't hate anyone, that I don't want problems with anyone, that I don't mind talking, but it's never enough.
If I'm not hurting the way some people want me to, or feeling the way they want me to, or reacting the way they want me to, they just keep at it. On and on and on for as long as it takes.
I have VERY big ears. Some of the biggest in the fandom. If you have something to say, then say it, dagonit. I'm not angry, just wonder why people keep.... wait, what the heck kind of word? lol.
Ugh, this is not how I wanted to start this journal off. I... There is a journal I want to make. One I think I have to make especially because of somewhat recent events. But it's been a while since I've made this type of journal.
There is a very specific way it has to be made, and I'm finding it difficult to really proceed onward. But I think I'll get it.
Anyway, what I was going to start with is that things haven't been all bad this year.
I've been learning a new language at a decent... well a slow rate. But I've been putting in consistent time. Even if that time is just 5 to 10 minutes a day, heh heh.
I've played some pretty good games. Hollow Knight. Horizon: Zero Dawn. GTA V. I recommend people play those at least once.
I've been able to successfully cook a few dishes. Some I've wanted to make for ages, and some I've never made before.
I have a daughter now. Even more hassle than the first kid, but eh, I like her, heh.
I had my first kid's birthday today! ...But it wasn't very glamorous. I kept trying to save it, but... I suck. I admit. I wish I did'n't suck. Bleh. I'll try to do something else for him, or rather both of them, soon. Having no money sucks...
I haven't really made any new friends this year. In fact I think... I might have lost more than whatever I made. I certainly don't want to lose anyone, but people seem to leave and never want to come back...
BUT I think I've gotten closer to loving myself! That's important, right? Heh heh. ...Please don't look at me like that.
Um... I can't really think of anything else. Wow, that short paragraph was my entire year.
*sigh* Where's the sad face emoticon when you need it?
well that year is over, i hope i can let it go,
and focus on what we, i and the universe, can do,
with this new next one.
Wondering why people keep doing that, or why some people have such a stigma against me.
I don't try to anger anyone, though I know not everyone wants to be friends.
I know I might get on some people's nerves, and so I try to make things better, but they always want to take the harder, much more annoying, hostile approach.
Almost everyone wants to start on a positive note. They want to forget the old and start anew.
It's a shame that to some others, they want to start / end things by suddenly and completely removing every trace of me from wherever.
And they want me to know it, and... I don't know. I just don't get it.
But you're right. It's best not to dwell on the negative.