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First Journal and the Start of a New Year
7 years ago
For those ahead of me in time, HAPPY NEW YEAR!! And for those on the same time frame, less than two hours to go!! ;D
Hello, my darlings~!!
So, first journal ever here on FA! I neglected this site severely after I joined, and I still need to catch up on stuff, but I've managed to add new stuff already and hopefully this trend continues.
But it's a new year and now it's time to move forward.
I don't believe in New Years Resolutions. I've never followed through with one, and I know if I were to make one now, I still wouldn't fall through with it. That being said, I am gonna make some changes for myself.
This past year has been a struggle of depression and severe insecurity; but in real life and online. It's the reason I barely made any new art or done much of anything really besides go to work and watch dumb shit on youtube when I'm free. This needs to change. This is getting pretty deep already considering it's a first journal post, but I need what few watchers I have to understand what's going on and where things are headed from here.
To start, I'm gonna be drawing more. I'm gonna be posting the things I draw, even if it's just an art dump. I remember just a few years ago even when I used to draw so much, I was posting art on whatever art-sharing sites I was a part of multiple times a month. That's dwindled to practically nothing until just recently, and I refuse to let that change now and fall into the same old habits as before. Which brings up my next point of change I need to implement.
I love video games. I used to play all the time, and even planned on streaming regularly. Though I have streamed a few times, I've let myself fall into such a state that even playing my favorite games has seemed like too hard a task. That needs to end. I miss having fun, I miss playing something for hours on end, just because it was fun. Whether I stream or not is still up for debate, but I'm not going to let myself remain so stagnant. Which brings up point number three.
My health has never been the best, and by health I mean my weight, and the effect is has on the rest of my life as a result. I will be the first to admit that I don't like regularly exercising... ever. But never before have I let it effect my life to the point where I barely want to leave the apartment because I'm just too lazy. I'm sick of fighting to have energy just for going to work, sick of not being able to find clothes that fit, and definitely sick of how insecure with myself I feel because of my weight and how it makes me feel. So, yeah. Getting my ass into gear and changing that shit. It's gonna be a battle, especially since currently I have the energy of a sloth on reefer. But I have the support of my family and friends to give me the strength I need to make this happen, and I refuse to fail this time.
I refuse to fail ever again.
WOW that got super cereal. So, before I get any more dour I'm gonna stop here and just finish up with another Happy New Year to everyone, and here's to kicking my own ass into gear to get shit DONE.
Jaden
Hello, my darlings~!!
So, first journal ever here on FA! I neglected this site severely after I joined, and I still need to catch up on stuff, but I've managed to add new stuff already and hopefully this trend continues.
But it's a new year and now it's time to move forward.
I don't believe in New Years Resolutions. I've never followed through with one, and I know if I were to make one now, I still wouldn't fall through with it. That being said, I am gonna make some changes for myself.
This past year has been a struggle of depression and severe insecurity; but in real life and online. It's the reason I barely made any new art or done much of anything really besides go to work and watch dumb shit on youtube when I'm free. This needs to change. This is getting pretty deep already considering it's a first journal post, but I need what few watchers I have to understand what's going on and where things are headed from here.
To start, I'm gonna be drawing more. I'm gonna be posting the things I draw, even if it's just an art dump. I remember just a few years ago even when I used to draw so much, I was posting art on whatever art-sharing sites I was a part of multiple times a month. That's dwindled to practically nothing until just recently, and I refuse to let that change now and fall into the same old habits as before. Which brings up my next point of change I need to implement.
I love video games. I used to play all the time, and even planned on streaming regularly. Though I have streamed a few times, I've let myself fall into such a state that even playing my favorite games has seemed like too hard a task. That needs to end. I miss having fun, I miss playing something for hours on end, just because it was fun. Whether I stream or not is still up for debate, but I'm not going to let myself remain so stagnant. Which brings up point number three.
My health has never been the best, and by health I mean my weight, and the effect is has on the rest of my life as a result. I will be the first to admit that I don't like regularly exercising... ever. But never before have I let it effect my life to the point where I barely want to leave the apartment because I'm just too lazy. I'm sick of fighting to have energy just for going to work, sick of not being able to find clothes that fit, and definitely sick of how insecure with myself I feel because of my weight and how it makes me feel. So, yeah. Getting my ass into gear and changing that shit. It's gonna be a battle, especially since currently I have the energy of a sloth on reefer. But I have the support of my family and friends to give me the strength I need to make this happen, and I refuse to fail this time.
I refuse to fail ever again.
WOW that got super cereal. So, before I get any more dour I'm gonna stop here and just finish up with another Happy New Year to everyone, and here's to kicking my own ass into gear to get shit DONE.
Jaden
