Well 2019 is now here.
The last 2 weeks on holidays I spent relaxing and in heavy thought.

I ended up having to change my home apt garden (inside and outside) to Hydroponics. I wanted to regardless, but a combination of stuff pushed me to do it sooner, (During the fall).
I was using dirt for the plants... but it led to some bugs eating the roots and killing the plants.
I got spider mites on 3 of my plants (saved them)
My one sage plant ended up getting mildew/mold on the leaves. (saved them)

Codey James Kruschenske ended up getting me some new grow lights for x-mas (flat LED grow lights). I ended up building new shelves (custom) for storage and growing the plants.
I took Cuttings from all my plants, for rooting and growing.
And I threw out the dirted plants or I transferred most of the soil based vegetation into hydroponic pots that I wanted to save.
I have ... 9 plants left I got to transfer over.
I will get pics of everything to show u guys.

The last 2 ish months. I have been working at the other Job. (parts manufacturing) The job is easy. Pays well/covers all my bills and then some.
Im alot less stressed then I was before, with doing fursuit work full time. Since I have a stable income now VS commission based with fursuits.
I wasn't sure if I would like the job... I wasn't too sure what I was getting into.... But I am enjoying it.
Fursuit work... took up alot of my time (when I was doing it full time) deadlines to meet... trying to get info from commissions, correct info at that, changes in the customers order (fur colour change as an example), or having a suit sent back to do some measurement mess-ups, all of that, can get stressful. And then adding personal life on top of that. Especially when u have deadlines to meet. There were times I had alot of extra money, and there was times when money got tight, (usually in winter money got tight).
Now I have a regular flow of income, I know all my bills will be paid.
So I would say my stress level, lets say... on a scale of 1 to 10.
My stress level went from 8 to 9, down to 3 to 4.

I am sticking by what I decided late last year. I will be finishing up my fursuit commission on the side till they are all done. If I decide to take commissions after I am done my que.... I don't know, I am leaving towards no.... I MIGHT do the odd one for a friend.
I enjoy making them. I love the RP in them. But doing it full time.... WAYYYY to stressful for me.

I am also at the crossroads on some stuff.
I wanna share more of my life with friends, family, and others.
The last 1 to 2 years of deaths.... Have made me REALLY rethink my life.
I wanna share what I know and teach others stuff.
I wanna share how to make fursuits. I wanna share how to grow your own plants/vegetation. I wanna help people with there personal health (depression and anxiety) and be healthy/fit. I wanna share how to build stuff, ranging from construction to building your own PC/customization. I wanna teach and show people how to de-stress, get out and be themselves, work together and so much more.
I am a jack of all trades and I LOVE teaching and helping others.
I don't want to leave this planet stuck in a room working on suits all day. I want to leave this planet knowing I helped as many people as I possibly could and shared the knowledge I know and got over the years.
And sadly the more people and friends that meant a lot to me (us) over the last 2 years. The more this became apparent.

So I was debating videos and content.
For the remaining commissions, I have right now. I was gonna video and show how I go about making each part of the suit. what not to do, what to do if X Y or Z happens. How to do suit repairs. etc etc etc.
As well as do videos on how to do growing and gardening for hydroponics. Videos on woodwork, body health, etc etc.

So over the next week. I am gonna start setting stuff up and going over what I wanna do and how I wanna share it, what days I wanna post stuff on for videos/pics and so on.