Is hatred and anger towards people who took parts of me away years past. People i called friends, People i loved.. Only thing they wanted was something from me and they took it away. Most of my compassion towards people is gone, my interest to care, gone. I thank you for ripping out my heart and spitting on my twitching carcass. Every year i get angry at this time of new year and i might not be the most social being ever. You who i'm talking about you know who you are, hope you are enjoying your false happiness, that you took from me. Back in a day, i might have been able to forgive, but no more. No more forgiveness, No more. You made me the creature i am. Undead walking among the crowds. An artist singing his own funeral song, for this death, made me an artist i am.


So yeah.. wanted to get this off from the chest and no worries, i'm fine, I hate New year! Happy new year for those who enjoy it. I will celebrated it alone with my shadows!
Ok, so bit of an vent journal, wanted REALLY get this out and this out there. I tend to suffer from depression from time to time and its because of all the shit i have gone through.
this is NOT MENT FOR YOU my dear watchers, its for the people from the past. And if someone from that past manages to read this.... Only thing i say... Tho you might be able to go forward and be happy, remember what you took from someone, remember what you said and did, because i remember everything. Every mistake, every word. And i never forgive myself... But most importantly i don't forget and i will never forgive you, people who made me what i am today. Because of you i lost my school place, my job. The depression you gave me took everything.

On a brighter note... I need to tank people who stood by my side on those horrible times, those who wanted to see me go forward and took old of my hand when i was about to fall. This is thank you for all of you who stood by my side when it was hard. I love you all.
I hope for better times to come, i'm getting back to job and everything is going better.
For those who are fighting the war with the bad life situation. My heart goes to you all, hang in there!
But this is probably enough of venting!
Happy new year and let it be brighter for us all!